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[enits]

Hi...

I stumbled upon this website and decided that it might be a nice thing for me to have when I login to my computer for some extra support.

I realized that I truly had an eating disorder a couple of months ago and recently began seeing a therapist. But I went backpacking in Europe a couple weeks ago where all of my binging went away. I thought, futile hoping really, that my eating problems would go away but coming back to live at home for a little while before I move to school - well, lets say it has been bad.

But after a week or two of doing absolutely nothing except sitting and eating - to a point where I am uncomfortably full, feeling fat and lazy, and fairly unhappy - I am resolved to change something...

But I know that my problems, the binging and so forth, won't go away so easily. Every day begins so hopefully and sometimes just keeps going down this downward spiral.

I wish I had some kind of routine...I know I should relax for this last summer before a lot of stress but having nothing to do all day just makes me FEEL like doing more nothing - except eating and feeling guilty later as I completely disregard some responsibilities.

So, I am writing this post I think, for me, but almost as a declaration. Thinking about food and dealing with it is taking up too much of my time and energy and I don't want inanimate objects ruling my life!

If anyone reads this, thanks for reading it...

[kat eyes]

:stars :hugon enit :hugoff :stars

Summer is usually a difficult season for us :pinkfishy when we have nothing to do except focus on ed behaviours :ugh
How about sighning up for a class of painting, writing or yoga? anything that might interest you! that way you can keep your mind away from the ed even if its an hour or two!

[emma lucy]

:hugon enits :hugoff

Welcome to the :bowl :balloons

I wanted to address the issue about having no routine in your life right now.
I hate just sitting around and doing nothing as it makes you focus on yourself and can create lethargy. The lethargy makes you feel :sad and then you begin to focus on ways to get rid of the sadness. These ways are usually not good ways :sad

I'm not sure of your age, but would it be possible to find a part-time job or get involved with a voluntary organisation. Having the opportunity to do something with your days will probably make the food issues less.

Good :clover

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:hugonenits:hugoff
welcome to the :bowl! i feel the same as you right now, summer is when i get lazy and bored. bored=eating. :kitty eyes has a good idea to find something productive to do, a class or something :grin