religious-inspired/boy-related frustration

[dreadbunny]

Okay, just give me a second here.... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRGGGGHHH!!!

Thanks. :ugh :ugh :ugh

Anyway, this is on the religious board mainly because there isn't a Lust-Addled Twit board and it does sort of deal with religion... Input from religious/spiritual :fishy is much appreciated...

There's this boy (doesn't it always begin this way? :ugh ) who just happens to be the cutest thing in the tri-state area. He invited me over casually to "hang out" and we ended up :kiss pretty intensely and going a bit further than we really should have (is there a :blushing smilie?). The second night (in a row) he invited me over, the same thing occured. (We did NOT have sex however.)

Then I started taking an interest in his church's belief structure and reading up on it because it really speaks to me. Now, here's where things get funky.

He'll invite me to church events and be really affectionate (holding my hand in church, draping his arm over the back of my chair, resting his hand on my knee even) but the second we're alone he acts like I've got cooties! Tonight was a little better in that we had a really in-depth discussion about religion/politics/etc and afterward he snuggled up against me on the couch and we cuddled. But when it comes to actually kissing me other than an ultra-chaste peck he seems like he'd rather gargle bleach!

What the heck does this mean?????

Should I be thanking God for not placing an obvious temptation in my path?
Does he see me as neutered since I'm interested in his church??
Is there really a Divine Plan for all this frustration right now???
Does he even still like me in that manner????
Why are relationships so difficult to fathom?????

Thanks all for reading my long-winded whine.

:love & strength
:bunny

[purple_tao]

my sweet :bunny

Remember what I said???? I think he's using you to show off at this church. If he's being all lovey-dovey in public but not in private, well, I think he's got an alternative motive going. And if this is the same guy you were talking about, I can't believe he'd use a relationship this way (against religious beliefs). Hmm......... Yes, I believe there should be a "lust" board :surprise. As cute as he sounds, me thinks he's using you for SOME reason. Sad. What a waste of hunky male skin, eh??? But, you can keep going out with him, but maybe keep yourself emotionally distanced. Not MILES away, but just be cautious. And make sure he's not trying to convert you--unless YOU really want to join this church. Make sure it's for YOU, not for him.

Good luck, :bunny
Hey, how are those dreadlocks coming????
:peace

[dreadbunny]

:hugon Kieran :hugoff

(I'm typing in purple just for you! :muhaha )

Boys are silly, aren't they? :ugh

It's pretty obvious I'm being heavily worked on to convert which I don't have a problem with- I enjoy learning about other religions and seeing how I feel. I just cannot for the life of me figure out this whole physical contact thing.
I think I'm going to learn more about the church outside of his presence that way I can know for a fact that my decisions aren't being swayed by how deliciously yummy he smells. :sarcasm

This is all just too perplexing for me. If I haven't just busted my @$$ working to improve my self-esteem and sense of self I would be taking this really personally but I'm just going to shake my head about it.

I'm going to his house tonight to talk with some church folk and also make dinner so I'm just going to skirt the far edges of his apartment and stay away from him and see what happens...

Some people get plagued with locusts, some people get plagued with totally unpredictable boys. :ugh

:peace
:bunny

(I gave up on the dreads and just dyed it crayon red instead. :winky )

[doggie]

:bunny You GO!!! girl.....take care of YOU!!! :love :dog

[purple_tao]

:bunny ........

................so, how's that religious boyfriend situation working out????

RED HAIR???? :surprise :cool :cool :cool

YOU RULE, BUNNY !!!!!

Take care of yourself and relish in the belief that YOU are a goddess!!!!!
His loss--not yours :sarcasm

:peace
:love

[dreadbunny]

Well, :bowl ...

It's still going on the same as before. Sigh. We either talk to each other or see each other on average four days out of five, we hold hands, we nap together, I cook dinner for us, we carpool to church. I feel like Will & Grace except without the benefit of Will at least being gay.

But, hopefully either he'll get hit in the head with a brick (not literally!) and wake up to the fact that we're a good couple :sarcasm or this nagging sense of lust on my end will quickly fade into oblivion.

Thanks for the encouragement though, fellow :fishy sisters! :winky

I'll just keep on keepin' on with taking care of me!

Y'all take care of you as well. :love :hugon :dog & Kieran :hugoff


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