i can't think of one! haha

[mwkat]

Hey fishie :bowl !!

Well, today has gone pretty good. :) :yay I'm eating pretty good. Which is really good, but in my head I view it as a bad thing..of course. And i do know that I am not through with this monster. You know what? I just noticed something..whenever I write in hear I say how "bad" this ed is. And i know it is..but really..i mean deep in my heart I know that I DON'T want to give it up at all. And i'm only saying its bad on here so that people don't think bad of me! I am always so worried about impressing people. wow..that was a light bulb moment! lol gosh..well.. my mom hasn't said anything about my suspected ed. I think b/c I am now eating normal. Mainly because I don't want her to confront me again.

Another thing I wanted to tell everyone is that I discovered a really good song. The lyrics hit so close to home :sad / :happy I recomend that all the :fishy 's check it out!
"Piece of Glass" by Caedomon's Call

Well..i think thats about it. :bounce
I'm thinking of something else to say..but I'm not sure..well...oh! Theres been another thing on my mind. ..well..ok I guess i'll just talk about it someother time..another time when i can just pour out my heart to all of you. :sarcasm

:hugon :love :hugoff

mwkat

[kat eyes]

:stars :hugon mwkat :hugoff :stars
I can completely understand you when you say you treat the ed bad here but you don't really feel that way about it. I used to be that way to when I arrived to the bowl. I used to feel I was lying to everyone because I :love my ed so much.... but as time flew by the :bowl made me think differently about it.
By reading so many posts of :fishy so :sad and having so much trouble with the ed, and by writing my own posts with so many problems and getting the "right advice" my view changed. I hate my ed, I want to get better, I want to live a normal life...
Its difficult, there still is a part of me that wants the ed more than anything... and when I reieve a reply saying I can beat the ed, I can show him "who the boss is", etc... my ed grows smaller and my inner self stronger.
I hope you feel this way too, its takes a while, but its worth it!