first post...

[warped_jane]

hi everyone,
this is my first time on the boards here, although I've been visiting SF (and recommending it to a few friends in need) for a long while. I am bulimic, and have been for years.

I am so close to obtaining health insurance at my current job, which is tremendous news. I have been trying to get proper therapy for a while now, focusing specifically on bulimia. I tried to do a study at Columbia University but wasn't allowed in because of a bleeding ulcer (from laxatives and purging) and a previously undetected heart defect, which ironically was discovered by the ED clinic there before I was rejected.

blah blah blah...
I've done everything to assault and starve my body, and I know it's a losing battle. I need support from you here, who won't just give hugs and offer shoulders, I need your understanding of the madness of this situation. and it looks like you have a lot...

I've recently purchased a medic alert bracelet for my heart condition, but I also made sure to have bulimia on the record with them as well. I can sometimes feel my body wanting to die. I cannot live like this anymore.

I want to be truly healthy. please help, and I'll try to help you in return...

[ribbon]

Welcome to the :bowl. You seem very determined to put your life back together :yay.
Recovery from an ED takes a lot of hard work. It isn't easy but it is doable. I'm so glad that you're being honest about your medical conditions, it's so important for the doctors who treat you to know what they're dealing with.
You may also want to post in the recovery forum if you're working on recovery. There are lots of great insights and challenges over there from :fishy who have been where you are. Some, like myself, have recoverED from EDs. I know for me, talking to and getting to know recoverED :fishy helped me realize that I was working toward an achievable goal.
I hope you can start therapy soon, because that has been essential for me and most every other person who is in long term or permanent recovery.