To my eating disorder...........

[majorettechica]

ok, this came to me last night and i had to share it here before I left.



To my eating Disorder,


You slowly make room for yourself inside of my head. My head You make me think you are my friend, my only friend, my best friend. You tell me lies, lies, and more lies, just enough for me to start trusting you, and then some more to take away my trust in my real friends, the pepple the care about me. You tell me to isolate myself away from people because you are my only friend. The isolation only brings me pain and depression.

You tell me I am fat, stupid, and a bitch if I do one thing wrong, one thing wrong You tell me i am stupid, and a fat bitch all the time.

Soon you start to contradict yourself. You tell me the reason noone wants to be around me, is because I am fat and stupid. That's not true right there, you told me to get away from these people before they hurt me, like you are hurting me.

Soon I found the strength to fight you, and your lies, and get you out of my head one day. A glorious gay. But that day hasn't come yet. I don't see the end near. I am strongly fighting the lies you are constantly telling me. Only now they are the truth to me and that makes fighting fifty times harder.

but i will survive trust me, ed, THIS is no lie because I will survive over your lies, I am strong!!!





ok, well that waz it :bowl thanks for reading!!

[buttercup_fairie]

:hugon em :hugoffcongrats!! that was an awesome way to kick some ED ass :kick and it was written so well! :supergrin thank for letting us all be able to read it :bounce you're right, you ARE STRONG :bounce

[heavenlee]

:hugon :love :hugon emily :hugoff :love :hugoff

you go girl !! keep fighting !
you make us all proud ! so be proud of YOU

:bandwagon

[fefa]

You go girl!!
Take care,
you can do it!

[BlueEyedGirl]

F$%^&*** U!

Way to go, majorettechica!

:love and support,
Blue Eyes

[LoveDanceBallet]

em that made me cry... I felt every word of it. Its perfect. All of it.

[majorettechica]

it doesnt even compare to all of your stuff though lora!!

[LoveDanceBallet]

But sadly I must tell u that I can only write stuff when I am really depressed or sad or stuff like that! Thats why all my work is depresssing and sad! Click here and go to the poetry page to see some of my work. (http://www.loraland.homestead.com)

[Juliana]

You truly are an inspiration for me, I am comitted to try harder! :winky I truly am! I am very proud of your progress. :bug It is a great cuality to be able to pin point your feelings and thoughts that way and you master it beautifully. :love Please keep up the great work! You sound so sure of yourself, it makes me wish I could feel so sure myself. Don't ever forget that we are ALL here to keep cheering you on all the way!!! (aren't you glad that there is a bowl?) :bowl.

Keep us posted!!!

Love,
Jules

[Shuffleboard Queen]

:hugon Emily:hugoff

What a wonderful :eye opener. I'm going to try that myself just now...let my ED know a thing or two. :sarcasm

Keep up the wonderful work, hon, and I'm so glad you shared this with us other :greenfish. You are a craftwoman with words.

:rainbow Carrie

[majorettechica]

im glad you guys enjoed it!!


:love always :love
:eye :ufo :bounce Emily :bounce :ufo :eye

[CerealKiller]

Goodbye and goodbye and goodbye. I tried to make you beautiful, to give some meaning to that which was meaningless, but it was all an exercise in futility.

you kept me from seeing the stars clearly,
and you tried to steal the wonder from everything.

i will not let you because I
want to be a prism.
I will reflect the light in a thousand different ways
Purple and green and yellow and blue
and all the colors in the universe
till they bleed to white.
And you were only gray, and always gray,
And there is a beauty in gray too,
for i can find beauty in everything,
but not when it blots out all colors
and covers the sun.

i want to see the sun and see the clouds too,
and feel the rain. I want to turn my head up to the sky and see life looking back down at me.

I liked you, but you were greedy and a thief,
and i have found new friends now,
new friends in the colors of the light,
and the amazement in looking around me,
and seeing the world looking back.

You robbed even the beauty of a ladybug.
You hid the stars.
You stole the sound of laughter.
I say goodbye and goodbye and goodbye.

and I am running down the road now,
running as fast as I can,
not just to escape you,
but to see all that I have missed.

And i will be Erasmus, and Cleopatra,
and a lady with a hat.
I will leap in the air and click my heels.
i will laugh and laugh and laugh,
and then I will run some more.

I will do it because i know the sound of freedom,
and I know the love of god.
I will do it because I can.
I will do it because you lied.
Because you made me believe in nothing,
but everything, I see now, everything
is possible.

And I believe in magic and i shall do what I want and be who I want, and i will change everyday because I am a prism,
and because this is called growth,
and growth is beautiful,
and life is beautiful.
And you tried to deny this,
but you were wrong.

I am the prism, and I dance and laugh,
and I reflect light in a thousand different ways.

Goodbye, and forget to write.

:ufo

[Evenstar]

Your poem manages to say it all and still read like an epic poem. I love it so much that I must have read it at least six times already! I keep coming back to it.

It is so true and so honest and important that I have saved it on my computer desktop to read everytime I log on.

I have taken the liberty of changing one line on my desktop version, so it that it "fits" me. The names I chose are those of two strong women from J.R.R. Tolkien's "Lord of the Rings."

From:

<<And i will be Erasmus, and Cleopatra,
and a lady with a hat.>>

To:

And I will Eowyn, and Arwen Evenstar,
and a lady with a staff.


Bless you for your talent and your insight, CerealKiller!

Love,
Evenstar

[Evenstar]

Originally posted by Evenstar
Your poem manages to say it all and still read like an epic poem. I love it so much that I must have read it at least half a dozen times already! I keep coming back to it.

It is so true and so honest and important that I have saved it on my computer desktop to read everytime I log on.

I have taken the liberty of changing one line on my desktop version, so it that it "fits" me. The names I chose are those of two strong women from J.R.R. Tolkien's "Lord of the Rings."

From:

<<And i will be Erasmus, and Cleopatra,
and a lady with a hat.>>

To:

And I will be Eowyn, and Arwen Evenstar,
and a lady with a staff.


Bless you for your talent and your insight, CerealKiller!

Love,
Evenstar

[Chriszgirl]

WHAT AN INSPIRATION:hugon :hugoff REALLY WELL WRITTEN :stars

[Clare]

I have an ed because my shape is disordered. I have big hips and thighs and a tiny chest. That is not a normal body to many evangelists...Anyhow. That is my reason for having an eating disorder, and when my boyfriend requested I get breast implants, I said, "Are you going to die all my hair blond next?" And he said, "That would be nice." Since I am not blond, and really do define "ugly" I am sure that I have a self-estfeem problem as well as an eating problem. If that makes sense...

[emma lucy]

:hugon majorettechica :hugoff

Keep :kick

[dramadiva]

:hugonEmily:hugoff

That was great. You are right- you will survive, you are one of the strongest people I know in mind, spirit, and heart. Those three things can overcome your physical insecurities. You are so beautiful Em, to me and so many other people. I :love you, hon. I am only a phone call away if you need me!