What can I do?

[rhine-fish]

Hi!
First of all I've got to say that I'm not from an English-speaking country, so please excuse eventual mistakes or wrongly used expressions. I found this site a while ago but I only read the threads with great interest but I didn't have the courage to post one myself.
I've been bulimic for a couple of years now and like most of you I haven't had the strenght to tell my parents, yet. Even my little sister whom I have a quite close relation to doesn't know about it. This is the hardest part for me, to lie to her, the person I love the most. But I'm sure I don't need to explain those kind of feelings to you, do I?
Anyways, I guess I'm starting to bore you, so let's come to my questions: I didn't really get through the stuff you can do on this site, so I'd like to ask what you can recommend me, what helped you and so on.
I would be grateful for any help on that!
Thanks a lot,
rhine-fish

[*star]

:hugonrhine:fishy:hugoff
first of all, your english is wonderful :happy.. secondly, have you tried therapy? or if you want your family to be involved, family therapy? i understand how difficult it is to continually lie to the people you :love just to try and hide this ed. good luck :clover

[purple_tao]

:hugon :hugon rhine-:fishy :hugoff :hugoff

Welcome to the :bowl. Yes, you will find lots of understanding people here. And your English is fine :happy

What can I recommend........... for this site, three pages:

(you'll see these on your left side on the homepage)

:stars In Loving Memory (there's a candle and a brief description of everyone who's died from an ED----a real tear-jerker)

:stars Issues, Signs, Factors

:stars Associated Dangers

Those last two pages talk about how ED's hurt us emotionally and physically.

Since this entire website is designed to get us to seek recovery, then I also agree with what *star suggested: seek therapy. If you've been bulimic for over two years, it's going to be almost impossible to beat this yourself. A therapist isn't someone to be feared: they are there to help you! My therapist is a recovered bulimic and so are some other therapists for the other :fishy on this board. So, they totally understand what you're going through.

Good luck with your journey and keep :kick !!
:peace

[titian]

Hello rhine :fishy
Nice to meet you. :cheesy
Yes, your english is great!
There are quite a few fishys from non-english speaking countries.

people here are at all stages from not having told anyone, to having told one person, to being in therapy. there is no one type of :fishy !
I have also a very good relationship with my sister but haven't told her yet. I have told my boyfriend though. I really recommend you reach out and tell someone. There is some really good advice about how to tell someone on this site - under the reaching out section.

purple made some very good suggestions - there is some excellent info on this website.
You'll find some wonderful support too. The other :fishy s are such a brilliant source of help, motivation, support, kindness and acceptance.

sending you much :love
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[rhine-fish]

HI!
Thank you for replying to my post, it's good to know there is someone out there who has to deal with the same problems each and every day and therefore knows what you're going through. I already am in therapy but at a university what means my therapist is not a "real" therapist, yet. She really tries to help me but until now nothing really changed.
Thanks for the recommended pages, I'll have a look at them.
Love,
rhine :fishy

:happy

[Alie]

i was so glad to read your post i'm also new n have not told my family. i'm ready to admit to myself i have an ed but don't think i'm ready to let my family in. i keep hoping they will see the signs (weight gain & loss the broken blood vessels around my eyes from purging the uncontrolable eating etc.) i'm ready to change and feel very strongly that i can. i'm not a religious person but today i was saying a little prayer when i was in my kitchen (where the food is ha! ha!) n when i looked outside there was a double rainbow the biggest most beautiful railbow i had ever seen doublei couldn't believe it i had this feeling from my head to my toes that i'm going to beat this!!

so hang in there rhine couse i know there is hope.

love Alie aka rainbow!!!