Cut a lot tonight.

[jesla]

The subject line says it all.
And my therapist sounded so happy today when I told her I hadn't cut since Tuesday.
I just NEEDED to so badly, to calm down because I was panicking.
I really hate myself. I dont know if things will ever get better.
Well, at least I ate today and some of the things I had were even healthy for me--so that was a good thing.

[Anonymous_Member002]

:hugon :hugon :hugon :love jesla :love :hugoff :hugoff :hugoff

eating was a good thing... a very good thing.. you should take credit where it is MOST definately due for that.


the cutting thing is hard....it is like any other addiction... we fall back on it because it is familiar.. and it works for that time. but in the long run it doesnt really work, and there are other ways of coping.


things WILL get better... and you have no reason to hate yourself. three days is an EXCELLENT start on not cutting... and maybe you can go four or five next time.

i am sorry this is a bit of an inadequate reply.. but i just wanted to send many :hugon :hugoff's and :love your way.

[jesla]

Thank you :hugon Willow :hugoff and the other Willows.
I appreciate your reply. :touched I am going to try for four or five days this time. I can do it. I once went a year.

[buttercup_fairie]

:hugon jesla :hugoffno matter how much you hate yourself, i love you a billion times more. i know it's tough and i know how hard it is to not cut and how you feel afterwards

i'm glad you ate and maybe after sunday, things will be better and easier for you. i know you can go the four or five days, i bet ever longer! just take it one day at a time and you'll do it and remember, when you're feeling like you need to cut, i know that cam and katie are there for you always and i'm always here for you online. :love you know where to find me :hugon :butterfly jesla :butterfly :hugoff

[kailyn]

:hugon Jesla :hugoff
Hon, you are not bad for cutting. I dont have anything stunningly helpful to say but i really wanted to reply, just to let you know that i understand and i :love you

[LucyE]

hon,
this was only a blip...nothing to feel ashamed about, just keep taking babay steps and it will be ok.
:love
Lucy

[the_dragonfly]

Just thought I would wish you the biggest amount of luck...
you've done it before, you can do it again...
I have faith in you