seniorpride
07-29-2001, 01:48 PM
hey :fishyies~
just wanted to share some stuff that happened last week at christ in youth conference. it was an awesome, spiritually challenging week and it really opened my eyes and got my attention. the theme was "surrender" - your heart, your hands, your mind, and your life. as you can guess, it was a hard theme for me. :sarcasm i fought cutting & s/i urges all week because of the intense emotions that some of the worship and sessions brought but... at the end of the week it was all worth it. God really worked in me and helped me to see not only the mess of a life i've been living, but that i need him to make things better - and i can tell you, i just got home yesterday and i already feel different. i rededicated my life on the last night of the conference and shared a bit with my youth group about how my life has been messed up - no specifics, just kinda said "i've really been mistreating my body, not honoring God with it, and i need to stop so i'm giving myself back to him if he'll take me back". i can't even tell you how relieved i feel right now just knowing that he is a God of second and third and fourth chances, how ever many you need. :winky i had some awesome support from my youth sponsors and found out how much they really do love us kids and how much they pray for us. it makes my heart break to see the incredible love each one of them has for all of us. i also discovered this week just how guarded and hard my heart has become - i couldn't even cry when i wanted to, and that's frustrating. very frustrating. :sad i am praying that as God heals my heart, that he will help me learn to cry again. :touched one of the speakers at conference used this verse and it probably hit me harder than anything else this week - "your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit. therefore honor God with your body." (don't remember where it was but i'll go look it up). that's what really finalized my decision to rededicate myself. i also had an awesome discipleship-group leader who seemed to know by intuition who was hurting and who was going through difficult stuff in our group - and he really cared. it was so neat. i know there was a lot more that touched me this week but i've rambled on enough so i guess that's all for now. :sarcasm love y'all! :shy
just wanted to share some stuff that happened last week at christ in youth conference. it was an awesome, spiritually challenging week and it really opened my eyes and got my attention. the theme was "surrender" - your heart, your hands, your mind, and your life. as you can guess, it was a hard theme for me. :sarcasm i fought cutting & s/i urges all week because of the intense emotions that some of the worship and sessions brought but... at the end of the week it was all worth it. God really worked in me and helped me to see not only the mess of a life i've been living, but that i need him to make things better - and i can tell you, i just got home yesterday and i already feel different. i rededicated my life on the last night of the conference and shared a bit with my youth group about how my life has been messed up - no specifics, just kinda said "i've really been mistreating my body, not honoring God with it, and i need to stop so i'm giving myself back to him if he'll take me back". i can't even tell you how relieved i feel right now just knowing that he is a God of second and third and fourth chances, how ever many you need. :winky i had some awesome support from my youth sponsors and found out how much they really do love us kids and how much they pray for us. it makes my heart break to see the incredible love each one of them has for all of us. i also discovered this week just how guarded and hard my heart has become - i couldn't even cry when i wanted to, and that's frustrating. very frustrating. :sad i am praying that as God heals my heart, that he will help me learn to cry again. :touched one of the speakers at conference used this verse and it probably hit me harder than anything else this week - "your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit. therefore honor God with your body." (don't remember where it was but i'll go look it up). that's what really finalized my decision to rededicate myself. i also had an awesome discipleship-group leader who seemed to know by intuition who was hurting and who was going through difficult stuff in our group - and he really cared. it was so neat. i know there was a lot more that touched me this week but i've rambled on enough so i guess that's all for now. :sarcasm love y'all! :shy