I'm Not Wanting ( a poem)

[LilThought]

I’m Not Wanting

A hand broke through
the bounds of heaven
to collect my soul,
filch my spirit, demand
my suffrage of reality;

this is what i had to say
if saying said i said this:

i’m not wanting.

take it all for all is
all i am;

dirty, tainted, polluted corruption
the little girl i never was or am i still
sitting under that parched tree
no, i long since walked across that river;

it’s now, it’s now, it’s never;

living here in an epitome,
a picture, a false pretense,
an illusion of what life
should be, should not be;

i’m not wanting.

delusional. who, me,
it’s just a word I sought
out to cease, to breathe, to please;

there’s no escaping
from myself;
even dreams realize
that this is this and
that is that;

it’s either this or it’s that,
this is that;

it’s everything, it’s nothing, it’s anything;

there are no contradictions;
simply diluted truths, factual lies,
bitter remorse;

i’m still not wanting.
i never was.
i never will be.
JLM

[clown]

It sounds like you are hurting my dear fishy friend. I hope you can find some hope and comfort in knowing that I hear your pain and would love to talk to you about finding Real hope and joy......Keep writting poems, this is really good.
love ya,clown:butterfly

[LilThought]

I really do appreciate your thoughts. It feels good to know someone else who doesn't know me cares. Thank you.
Jamie

[Anonymous_Member005]

:hugon Jamie :hugoff

thanks for sharing ur poetry..it is very beautiful and deep..i can tell ur hurting and if u ever need to talk just email me..

:love amanda :stars