kab
01-30-2003, 11:56 AM
Mortal Me
The Enormity of existence
In embracing all that be
Within myself, beyond the rationalizations of my mind
Insurmountable truths beneath the fears
The certainty and acceptance of the inexplicable end
The realization of my mortality
:sun:sun:sun
Reentering Myself
This place is frighteningly haunting.
I’ve lived here before and now I return
To an unmoved familiar space, unoccupied for so long.
It’s cold and lacks the existence of any movement for quite some time.
I am here again,
And for what should be familiar and comforting,
Has become dark, desolate and yet unfamiliar.
When I left here, I could not have imagined how long I would be gone
And how time could make me a stranger, an oddity in my realm.
The reunion is not sweet but terrifying.
What have I done since my departure?
How could I allow my place to become so void and unkempt?
Now I must live here again and find the time lost inside.
Find the colors of comfort and safety for me to exist here peacefully once more.
I cannot leave again.
Time may not permit another chance to reenter.
:sun:sun:sun
Panic Attack
I cannot cry loud enough.
I am desperate and left waiting, for the unpredictable, undeniable end.
I am chained to the loud rattlings of my mind.
The torturous chants of obsessive, scrutinized thoughts.
I have been sabotaged by my own intelligence.
The intelligence that once won me praises.
I left myself to exist only in my mind
And now I am left w/ meaningless revelations and unmatched keys to set myself free.
The Enormity of existence
In embracing all that be
Within myself, beyond the rationalizations of my mind
Insurmountable truths beneath the fears
The certainty and acceptance of the inexplicable end
The realization of my mortality
:sun:sun:sun
Reentering Myself
This place is frighteningly haunting.
I’ve lived here before and now I return
To an unmoved familiar space, unoccupied for so long.
It’s cold and lacks the existence of any movement for quite some time.
I am here again,
And for what should be familiar and comforting,
Has become dark, desolate and yet unfamiliar.
When I left here, I could not have imagined how long I would be gone
And how time could make me a stranger, an oddity in my realm.
The reunion is not sweet but terrifying.
What have I done since my departure?
How could I allow my place to become so void and unkempt?
Now I must live here again and find the time lost inside.
Find the colors of comfort and safety for me to exist here peacefully once more.
I cannot leave again.
Time may not permit another chance to reenter.
:sun:sun:sun
Panic Attack
I cannot cry loud enough.
I am desperate and left waiting, for the unpredictable, undeniable end.
I am chained to the loud rattlings of my mind.
The torturous chants of obsessive, scrutinized thoughts.
I have been sabotaged by my own intelligence.
The intelligence that once won me praises.
I left myself to exist only in my mind
And now I am left w/ meaningless revelations and unmatched keys to set myself free.