Jealous of my friend - Bitch!

[jazmeena]

i'm really friggin pissed off right now. my friend makes me feel unfeminine and unattractive. yes! i'm jealous of her, i admit it. she makes me sick. over the weekend, she has to flaunt her bouncy boobs and wears a low-cut dress with major cleavage. of course, i catch my boyfriend staring. i held everything in, but i'm taking it all out on this post. i have small boobs and i hate my best friend for always showing her D-cups off. it pisses me off. i feel so incompetent. i feel like nothing. i wanna tell her to fuck right off and quit taking my boyfriend's interest away from me. yes, i am hurting. i don't care if she's supposed to be my friend. now i feel like my boyfriend doesn't want me anymore. i feel so ugly. i feel like he could be thinking about her. i don't know. i just wanna tell her to go to hell. i feel like getting a boob job. i hate her guts. it makes me wanna binge. this bitch in my life is a trigger to me. screw a lecture on how my body doesn't determine my self-worth. it seems that way, at the moment.
to end in a positive note, by the end of july, i will be purge free for five months. still working on those binges though!

[Carriej]

:hugon Jazmeena :hugoff

You say she's a friend, but if the things you say about her are true, she doesn't sound like much of an asset to you.

I think the truth is, (and I'm only guessing here) that you're struggling with your own self-esteem issues.

I happen to be a D cup and, believe me, I'm not too thrilled with it. "The grass is always greener...." I envy my smaller chested friends who can wear cute little, form fitting, tops without looking obscene. Everything makes you look huge when your chest is big. Going without a bra in the hot summer months is not an option and I'm soooo looking forward to how they are going to look when I get older. :sarcasm I would hate to think any of my friends held it against me and despised me for my chest size; because I can't help it! :ugh

I sincerely hope you calm down enough to realize that she's probably not doing anything to hurt you intentionally.

[CerealKiller]

Hi Jazmeena,

Your friend may be a bitch, and I understand the mood of the moment, but if you look closer you'll see that no one can 'make' you feel anything. What you feel has a lot more to do with your own insecurities than anything she has done. Having big boobs or small boobs or any kind of boobs isn't going to mean anything to anyone who cares about anything beyond the superficial. If she wants to be seen as a sex object and flaunt her breasts all over the place, she's going to be used as a sex object and that's not anything I'd want in any kind of a 'relationship' because that's not a relationship at all. Big breasts 'get' (some) men temporarily, but they don't keep men longer than it takes to undress, poke it in, and redress; having a loving relationship that lasts will have nothing to do with whether you're a triple AAA or triple EEE -- it's what inside that makes a relationship work. Or not work.

I hope this helps, think about it and take care!

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:hugonjazmeena:hugoff
hey hun.. youre not alone on this one.. i have that feeling all the time! especially when my bf points out big titties on another girl to me! he always explains afterward that it doesnt mean anything though and he reassures me that he :loves me for who i am (and what i have :grin). anyway, she is no kind of friend to do that to you if she does it on purpose. but if shes not doing it to "steal" your boyfriend, then like :hugoncarrie:hugoff said, you cant really hold it against her. also, i really have to agree with the cerealkiller on this! :hugoncerealkiller:hugoff, your advice is wonderful here!
Big breasts 'get' (some) men temporarily, but they don't keep men longer than it takes to undress, poke it in, and redress
lol :muhaha but its true..
hope youre ok now and not still :mad!

[dramadiva]

Awe, sweetie. I know it's hard when you have a friend that seems perfect. If she purposely tries to get your b/f's attention, then she is definitaley not a friend. Maybe your friend flaunts her body so much because she feels uncomfortable with who she is. And if you tell your b/f to stop looking at her, and he gets weird about it, he is sooo not worth your time. Don't let your friend make you feel bad. About the breasts, I am almost a D cup, and only fourteen, and it is not fun. My mom wears a double D, so things don't look very bright for me. I have been teased and made fun of because of them. I hate it when I get attention for my chest. It aggrivates me because I am a person with feelings, and a brain, but the guy doesn't listen to me when he's staring at my chest! I want to be loved as a woman, not a sex object. I'm sure you have other features you can play up and show off. Your eyes? Lips? Butt? Hair? Find something about yourself you like and work it girl! Good Luck!

[jazmeena]

To Carriej, yes i am insecure and have low self-esteem. thank you for pointing out that i shouldn't be blaming my friend for how i feel. you are sweet to mention this and hopefully your wise words will sink in my head.

To CerealKiller, thanks to your commonsense. i need to realize that i have more to offer than what breast size. funny quote by the way.

To Star, i need to be more like you and i need to feel comfortable and mature w/ myself and my body. i hope i can stop feeling unworthy to my boyfriend.

To dramadiva, thank you. you are young but quite mature for your age w/ your advice to me. i will try to work it :winky

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:hugonjazmeena:hugoff
glad to see youve calmed down :cute. youre a sweet :fishy and im sure your bf knows it. good :clover!