poem i just wrote

[bri]

I can not stand the pain and hurt
That I feel inside
It makes me want to run
It makes me want to cry

Rarely when tears are shed
THere are only one or two
My ducts dry up so fast
There is nothing I can do

I feel empty inside
And my loneliness grows
With each passing day
I become all the more low

Fear and desperation
Fill my head each day
How can I go on living
In such an awful way

I am scared to face the demons
Scared to have people see
The evil and ugliness
That is me

I try to numb myself
But that works no more
Pain, hurt, fear, loneliness
Feelings I must endure

Where is the happy girl
Who loved life and was free
For sure that girl
Could never have been me

I lost myself so long ago
Who the hell am I
I wish someone could tell me
ALthough I would think what they say are lies

The part of me who wants to fight
Becomes overwhelmed by fear
For with a new life brings changes
And I have been living like this for years

I don;t know what my hobbies are
I don't know who the fuck I am
ALl i do know is
The answeres lie within

I years to reach
That rainbow at the end
It is so hard and scary
I need a helping hand

I am so scared
Of alwyas being alone
Of being abondoned
Of losing my comfort zone

I hope i will recover
That the demons will not destroy mne
I will not give up fighting
For I really want to live and be free

:love
bri

[toast]

:love :hugon bri :hugoff :love

i adore your poetry, it's amazing and so real. thank you for sharing!

:gimmehug

[ruthieeee]

heya Bri!

i thought that was really good...*hugs* expressed your feelings so well :)

ruth

[fefa]

:hugon Bri :hugoff

I am so :touched. It is so much true!!!! Thank you for sharing!! And maybe you can get in touch with your inner child, and start to ask where is she... As you express your feelings and accept then, they can go away!
Take care

[bri]

:hugon bre :hugoff
:hugon ruth :hugoff
:hugon fefa :hugoff

thank you for responding. i am glad that you guys liked the poem.

:love
bri