not sure if i have an ED or not

[runningz]

hey everyone...i just found this site and i thought it was great, so i was wondering if i could have some help. the thing is i'm not sure if i have an eating disorder or not. as you can tell, i'm a runner...a die hard runner-basically my life. well about last year at this time, i overtrained, along with watching what i was eating and being concerned about my weight in the wrong way. i became really underweight-i guess i lost bone mass from this and amenorrah(sp?) and i got a really bad stress fracture. during the months i was off, i gained a pretty significant amount of weight(from not being able to exercise at all and not really caring what i was eating). now that everything is back to normal i've restricted what im eating-but i don't starve myself, i'm trying to be healthy, i find myself stepping on the scale more than twice a day, i do h ave that perfectionist attitude-thinking that my weight gain is why i'm not running as well as i did last year. i don't want to put my health at risk and there are times where when i find that i haven't reached the minimum number of calories in my weight loss plan, i'll eat a lot but then feel guilty. i don't eat in front of people, i do have some trouble sleeping, im cold a lot. i exercise a lot. i've looked up average weight for my height and it says that my weight is average, but the lowest average weight. but i have a very poor image of my body. i don't want to put myself in danger, so i was wondering if anyone could tell me if this is a normal diet plan or if there's something wrong with it and should i look for some sort of help?? thanks for taking the time to read this!

[HippieChick]

:hugonrunningz:hugoff

Welcome to the :bowl

From what you said in your post, I would say you do have an eating disorder. You don't have to be stick thin to have an eating disorder. I'm sub average weight for my height, but I hate the way I look.

Any you are obsessed with food and weight is a good sign of an eating disorder.

Welcome again.

:love Adrienne

[black opal]

:hugon runningz :hugoff

Welcome to the :bowl

From what you say it sounds like you have an eating disorder.
As a general rule, if someone thinks that they have an ED they usually do.

I know my ED started in a similar way. I just wanted to be healthy, but didn't realize that I actually had an ED.

you have come to the right place for support.
I hope you find the :bowl helpful

[Lissa]

:hugon runningz :hugoff

Welcome to the :bowl ....it's a great place for support!

Like the others said, it sounds like you may have an eating disorder. It sounds like you're becoming obssessed with your weight, even though you are trying to be healthy at the same time.

Having an eating disorder doesn't seem to just be about your physical appearence...it's kind of the whole mind-set...you sometimes think that everything will be ok or you'll be a better person if you have a lower weight :ugh .

Perhaps talking to someone like a friend might help?

Anyway, keep posting and let us know how you're doing!

Lots of :love
Lissa

[freddi]

hi hun

welcome here!!!

:happy

i myself often say oh there is nothing wrong and i am just being healthy but you know deep down that there is...

at least you can talk about it to us now which i always think is the most important thing because nobody here will judge you

if you ever need to talk just mail me at fbarthel@hotmail.com and i will reply...

lots of love :love freddi

[Lonely J]

ello!

i found this site last xmas, i have always had problems with the way i look and i knew that my eating habits were not normal. i have never seen a doctor about it and for the past month or so i've had exams hanging over my head so i have been over-eating and now i have the same guilt feelings coming back. i am scared that i am going to lapse back into it in fact i am pretty sure i am. i miss the feeling of achieving my goal, being able to fit into clothes that i never could no-one can make a substitute for these feelings.i have started hurting myself because i can't control my appetite but i think that my increase in appetite is to do with me taking the contraceptive pill? i only take the pill for my acne and my spots have disappeared!!! that's one upside. i dunno why i am visiting again but maybe i can help someone??
thanx for being here
jodie -X-