Anonymous_Member004
11-19-2002, 08:42 PM
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so many things i must cope with, so alone, somehow managing, wondering why try, yet i struggle along, alone. i have no real-time
help. i had to give up on that. i am strong, right? i am in charge of me, right? i want to feel that i matter in the grand scheme of things, but i don't. i am so depressed. i have been sleeping most of the day for days. not especially because i am tired, but just want time to pass. i am very discouraged. i see my orthopedist next week. i have been out of the cast for a couple weeks now and have been exercising my atrophied leg and am regaining muscle. but my ankle,,,,no change. i need another surgery. but cannot find anyone to drive me. i have to decide before my appointment if i will have the surgery, or just be fitted for a permanent brace. i am so discouraged, i just want to give up and accept the brace. but my ankle hurts:cry. it is no better than it was eight months ago:cry. only in a cast did the pain stop. i will discuss this with Dr. W. and hope something can be arranged. my ed is out of control. i had my mother staying with me for two weeks, and i fell apart. i am struggling to get back on some sort of healthy eating, but i am struggling. i hurt. i am on meds but they never work. i find it very difficult to tell my pdoc that the meds aren't working because he then shows me my chart with a long list of all the meds he says i have been on. how am i supposed to react to that? i feel ashamed of wasting his time, especially if i have been on every med ever invented, like i am a hopeless case:sad. i feel so depressed. i don't know how to fix it. i feel so hopeless, like, why am i here? what is it all about? do i matter to anybody? do i matter, at all? i don't know why i am here. if anybody has any advice, please help? i really really really need a hug, please?
i am sorry to post and be so needy. please forgive me
so many things i must cope with, so alone, somehow managing, wondering why try, yet i struggle along, alone. i have no real-time
help. i had to give up on that. i am strong, right? i am in charge of me, right? i want to feel that i matter in the grand scheme of things, but i don't. i am so depressed. i have been sleeping most of the day for days. not especially because i am tired, but just want time to pass. i am very discouraged. i see my orthopedist next week. i have been out of the cast for a couple weeks now and have been exercising my atrophied leg and am regaining muscle. but my ankle,,,,no change. i need another surgery. but cannot find anyone to drive me. i have to decide before my appointment if i will have the surgery, or just be fitted for a permanent brace. i am so discouraged, i just want to give up and accept the brace. but my ankle hurts:cry. it is no better than it was eight months ago:cry. only in a cast did the pain stop. i will discuss this with Dr. W. and hope something can be arranged. my ed is out of control. i had my mother staying with me for two weeks, and i fell apart. i am struggling to get back on some sort of healthy eating, but i am struggling. i hurt. i am on meds but they never work. i find it very difficult to tell my pdoc that the meds aren't working because he then shows me my chart with a long list of all the meds he says i have been on. how am i supposed to react to that? i feel ashamed of wasting his time, especially if i have been on every med ever invented, like i am a hopeless case:sad. i feel so depressed. i don't know how to fix it. i feel so hopeless, like, why am i here? what is it all about? do i matter to anybody? do i matter, at all? i don't know why i am here. if anybody has any advice, please help? i really really really need a hug, please?
i am sorry to post and be so needy. please forgive me