talking to yourself

[sophsUK]

:hugon fushys :hugoff

ok, i hope that when u read this u dont think im mad, i just want to know that i'm not alone.

I find myself saying things out loud to myself so much these days, like all my thoughts are a worldwind and i just cant cope and i say out loud to myself, 'shut up u worthless fat bitch'... and then i stop and realise that im talking to myself.

Even sometimes when i walk down the street and all i can think of is how fat i feel i just whisper to myself 'fat' over and over again. Or when im exercising i whisper abuse at myself, 'like u r not trying hard enough, try harder bitch!!' i just feel that if i verbalise stuff, i'll take more notice of what is being said. Does this make any sense to u, sorry if u are confused.

tc fishys
:luv sophs xxx

:vroom

[Lissa]

:hugon Sophs :hugoff

Don't worry, you aren't alone in this. I occasionally whisper nasty things to myself if I'm eating and feeling down about it :sad .

The thing is, you wouldn't allow anyone else to shout abuse at you in the street like that, would you? You'd either tell them where to go or you'd just ignore them, right?! I know it's tempting to 'motivate' your ED behaviours by saying things like this to yourself, but remember that it is your ED talking, not you.

You don't deserve to be spoken to like that or even think things like that about yourself. You are worth so much more and you are :love d and very special.

Please take care of yourself.
Lots of :love
Lissa

[unhappygirl]

*cough cough* yup, i know about talking to yourself!!!
i do it most of the time. Kinda like, cuz there's no one in my life i am substituting thier voices with mine. As if I have blocked them all out and only anorexia can now speak - its taken the lime light and i have to listen. Damn i sound mad!
Basically, i know hwat you're tallking about, deary, :winky just like I always do :sarcasm

I guess it just shows you when you're not fully incontrol. Perhaps when it happens you could substitute one of the destructive words with 'nope, you can lose ONE of your nast words cuz Heather told me i have to'
:sly

take care, babe and remember that I am ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU :love and hoping to see you soon :winky!

[luxe]

:love sophs :love
You really NEED to take more notice of those inner (and sometimes spoken) negative voices. They will get you nothing but CRAP out of life. You should tell them to shut up and pay attention to the self loving voices instead. You may think you don't have any, but you always have had them. After a while of being neglected, they just got more and more quiet. I think you know what's in your best interest and you deserve to be happy. And if the neg. voices don't like it, they can shove it!!! A wonderful book that REALLY helped me with this problem (I had the same thing happening to me) is called "Feel The Fear And Do It Anyway" Hope this helps.
:love you!

[macgirl]

:hugonsophs:hugoff

sometimes what helps me is to write down these negative feelings in my journal. then when I'm feeling better, I can come back and revisit the thoughts and evaluate whether they make sense or not.

:clover

[IndianDaisy]

You aren't alone, I talk out loud to myself too. I am sure most poeple does.

[rainbowswirl]

:hugon :fishjump Sophie :fishjump :hugoff

:gimmehug I know what you mean, I do the same thing myself but maybe like :hugon macgirl :hugoff suggested you could start a journal and write down your feelings, and try and challenge them? I'm always here if you need to talk :ear

Take care of yourself. :cute