in a mode

[JolieAnn]

I am just going to write a little here. I have had a very rough past few weeks. At this very moment, I am in binge mode. I am having so much difficulty stopping. I am scared and I feel so alone. However, I am so grateful for everyone here who I can tell all this to. I'll be back soon, with some positive feelings. :sad

[JolieAnn]

:hugon everyone :hugoff
Sorry :bowl for the last post. It's a little later now. I'm still not feeling too great but I was able to get out of my binge mode. I just went upstairs and laid down for a little while.
I am starting to feel hopeless again. I mean, I am aware of why I binge, but the habit is SO hard to break. I think I may just be very tired. I have been crying a lot and I know that wears me out. I'm sure I'll be back later. I just wanted to update all of you and let you know, I did get out of it.
Sorry for all these negative posts...
:train :train :train :train

[CurveeCurls]

Holly,

I wish people didn't feel like they had to apologize for negative posts. That's what we come here for, right?!? Lots of people here are having negative times...I know I am. But I can't apologize for them, and I can't apologize for my disease...I can only try to recover.

On the other hand, if you're like me, you feel the need to apologize for being in a bad mood, because we're always supposed to be happy-go-lucky and pleasant, otherwise, no one will like us if we're negative. The good news is that we're human, and we have positive and negative times in our lives.

So while it sucks to have to leave a negative post, I just want you to know that that's what I'm here for! To share my feelings with others, and read the feelings of people just like me, so that maybe I can offer them some support.

I wanted to tell you that it's good that you got yourself out of binge mode. I had the exact same kind of day. Fortunately, I'm out of binge mode now too.

Hang in there, stay positive, but remember that everyone has negative times. The good thing is, that you don't have to stay down. Get right back up and fight for that recovery!

Lotsa :loveLove!:love

~Curls

[JolieAnn]

:hugon Curls :hugoff

Thank you so much for your validation. It's true, I am constantly apologizing for everything. I guess it's at the point where I am basically apologizing for being me. I realize how many times I come here and apologize for a negative post. I always feel like we are supposed to be positive and, like it says, post at least one thing positive at the end. That is so difficult sometimes. Especially lately. :sad That's great that you were able to get out of "binge mode" yesterday. Good for you.. :happy
Thanks again. You always give very helpful and validating responses.
:ican :ican :love :love :ican

[MML]

Dear Holly,

I agree with Curls, the :bowl is here for us to discover and share our feelings! I think it was very POSITIVE of you to acknowledge and post your feelings!

Just feeling seems very tough for me sometimes and to name your feelings and share them is an accomplishment in my book!

Good work, Holly!

:peace :love :clover

[Allison LHF]

:hugon holly :hugoff

that's so awsome that you were able to get over it all by yourself...however I wish I could have been around to help you out as well :ohboy
Anyway, don't ever be afraid to ask when you think you need a little extra help!

:bounce Allison :bounce