nrvsnelli
08-06-2002, 02:21 PM
hey guys:)
i'm back for what i think is the third or fourth time now. i've given up on using the forums as a means of support so many times because my desire to eat simply won out over my desire to recover. but for the first time i'm actually *mad* at my e.d. rather than victim to it. instead of deciding to starve myself after a binge, i got pissed, worked out to get out some of my frustration, and hopped on the computer. i refuse to eat anymore to stuff down whatever it is i'm feeling. while i was basically drinking caesar dressing before (i had to laugh at that after i did it;), i started to think..."food isn't meant to suppress emotion. its meant to enhance life, not dull it." does that make sense? In anycase, I could really use some support, and I've always found it here. Thanks for listening, hopefully you'll be hearing more from me:)
hugs
~nelli :bug
i'm back for what i think is the third or fourth time now. i've given up on using the forums as a means of support so many times because my desire to eat simply won out over my desire to recover. but for the first time i'm actually *mad* at my e.d. rather than victim to it. instead of deciding to starve myself after a binge, i got pissed, worked out to get out some of my frustration, and hopped on the computer. i refuse to eat anymore to stuff down whatever it is i'm feeling. while i was basically drinking caesar dressing before (i had to laugh at that after i did it;), i started to think..."food isn't meant to suppress emotion. its meant to enhance life, not dull it." does that make sense? In anycase, I could really use some support, and I've always found it here. Thanks for listening, hopefully you'll be hearing more from me:)
hugs
~nelli :bug