don't know where i belong/don't want to belong...

[Allison LHF]

I've always kind of flipped around from one board to another because I don't know how to classify myself. the longer I deny myself the act of eating, the more I'm afraid to at all. But then something snaps at some point...and it becomes out of control like tonight.

I don't really know what I'm thinking or trying to say at the moment. Nothing of consequence I suppose, just awake and confused with myself and unhappy...

:bounce Allison :bounce

[Kensington]

Hi Allison LHF,

You're welcome to post anywhere in the :bowl, hon.

I understand the ricochet thing - eating, not eating, binging, etc. Please feel free to post here & check out the coe recovery board, too. Lots of great people on both boards.

[MML]

Hi Allison,

I'm new here. I'm not sure where I belong either. I've been posting at the "think tank" that has self discovery exercises. They seem to be very helpful for self examination.

I've known for a long time that I have an ED, but have never gotten any help. I want to recover. I think this is a safe place to start!

I binge eat and it feels very much like I "snap". Sometimes I can feel it building, sometimes it begins without warning. Either way, when it's over, I end up in physical distress, sad and very, very confused. I also want to hide what happened.

So, know that you aren't alone!

:peace

[Allison LHF]

Thank you, Kensington. I've kind of flip flopped around in the past. I guess it just depends on what sort of place I feel in at the moment. I've tried the recovery boards as well but I always second guess myself that I'm not that far yet...but then why would I be here in the first place right? So yes, I will check out the COE recovery board as well. Thanks for the response.

:hugon MML :hugoff I know that feeling! The one where you 'snap' I mean. It's just like a bad thunderstorm sometimes, I feel it rumbling in anticipation of that one loud clap of thunder, bolt of lightening, and downpour of rain all at the same time :sarcasm I've looked at the think tank as well, but never felt like I had a response. I think I'll try to make it my goal here to respond to at least one post there per week though. Hope to see you around more.

:bounce Allison :bounce

[MML]

Hi Allison!

I know what you mean about not having anything to say to think tank questions! All kinds of things run through my head...but I've just been writing down whatever comes up for me and, amazingly, I find out helpful stuff about myself!

I did an exercise about what color your feel like and part of the exercise was to wear the color and tell one person how you were feeling. This was REALLY hard for me, but I did it and felt good about it. Different strokes, right?

Just browsing around this site for a few days has already been good for me. I found out where an OA meeting was and plan to go Saturday. I've started reading the OA Program book.

I'm definately not in recovery yet, but want to be! Until then, hope to see you around the :bowl!

[ARTgrrlOne]

:winky :hugon L'Allison :hugoff :winky

hey, stranger! :sarcasm

I gotta say, post anywhere you damn well please!!! And send any complaints direct to me! :grin

:love
Ally :sun