the commonwealth games

[Darrell]

I feel so bad about this - am being so triggered :cry I just wanted to enjoy watching it, and here I am looking at their bodies not at their sport

is it just me:sad?

[redser]

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hi there darrell
i admire ur honesty but i would suggest that u shouldnt watch it when ur in that frame of mind u know a triggering mind would u watch something else instead. mind urself darling. e mail me if u like reddenisebrady@yahoo.co.uk

luv
redser

[manicmartin]

Yeah well i've pretty much been watching all of the athletics as well, as i find it much easier to make myself exercise when it's on, so i kinda guess it's a slight trigger for me. As for the whole body thing, being a guy, i guess it's a bit different but i suppose i aspire to be more like the marathon runner bodies than sprinter with all the muscles, which i guess is pretty lame, just my messed up mind. Why can't we just watch it and not have these dumb thoughts !!
ManicM:uk:love:peace:cool

[Tap Freak]

Hi Darrell :fishy

I have been watching a lot of the games. I personally haven't found it triggering at all. I see a lot of "fit" bodies, not any emaciated ones. That said, the ladies gymnastics bothered me because I saw so many "women" with the bodies of young girls.

I'm sad that you're getting triggered by the games. I guess you could always stick to watching events that aren't necessarily going to show mega "body beautiful" people, like badminton (one of my faves to watch), hockey, diving etc. That way you can concentrate on the sport and not the bodies.

:love Tap :kiss

[Darrell]

okay - that was a shockingly honest post from me :ummm - I'm not good at admiting things like that upset me, which was why I tried to post it because I need to be honest to *myself*

um

:trigger - I'm just going to try and be honest and that will prob involve body-image stuff

:hugonredser:hugoff - thank you for you advice - I totally apreciate the logic, but to me turning the tele off would be giving in. Perhaps 'triggered' was the wrong word. I think I am strong enough not to be drawn to act on the way it made me feel - and hence I don't want to hide myself from the situation [which also happens everytime the sun shines and I walk down the high-street among so many bodies too]. I just have to admit to myself it affects me and find the strength not to get mad at myself and hate my body. I have a long way to go before I get to that level of acceptance but I have to try.

:hugonManicM:hugoff - thank you sooooo much - good to know I'm not the only one who gets a bit affected - hang on in there and stay strong :gimmehug

:hugonTap:hugoff - soooo interesting - thank you for replying :shy. Funnily watching the gym didn't phase me :ohboy - it was just some of the running that actually prevoked that post. And no - I didn't see anyone I felt was emaciated - and I get the impression from your post trigger=emaciated to you. I don't think that's true for me. Maybe because I am am quite a high-healthy weight even the slimish-healthy-weight people "trigger" me a bit, and maybe because I've never been emaciated [is that denial :ohboy:ummm??]. I think in a way it was seeing such clearly *healthy* bodies that funnily enough distressed me. I desperately need to get fit at the moment - so it emphasised that point in my mind. And I also think - I need to be healthy hence I need to be less pudgey, which triggers ED temptations.

I'm v aware that right now I really want to trade bulimia for anorexia again. omg I can't believe I just admitted that. I have to fight that and trade bulimia for nice healthy eating behaviour. But it's tough - although I think I'm just on the side of winning not losing. That's prob why so many bodies unsettled me.

Sorry I've garbled on now, prob dug myself even deeper into my hole etc. I just had to try and address that :surprise

:hugonthank you all:hugoff