New Fish

[Bilbo]

Hello out there, I am a new fish and this is my first post. I have recently been diagnosed with anorexia, I saw this web site and thought it would be great to be able to share my feelings right now with people who actually understand what I'm going through.

At the moment I feel as though my life is on hold, all my thoughts centre around the ed and food. Sometimes I feel as though it's what I am not a problem I have.

I am seeing a doctor as my husband guessed my problem and made me go to see her, this is difficult as I feel it wasn't may choice. although I know in my heart of hearts that I have to get well. I am so anxious and scared. I feel as though I cant do this, its too big for me.

Also I'm not doing as well as the people who support me think. I just got more clever. I don't like me much at the moment.

If anyone out there knows a good relaxation technique, I would love them forever. I cant sit still, I am a ball of nervous energy, its driving me nuts. I could also use some advice on how to handle a panic attack.

I feel this support is going to be good for me. I just need to have my hand held right now, and to know that I'm not alone.

Fishy signing off.

[emma lucy]

:hugon Bilbo :hugoff

Welcome to the :bowl and from a fellow :uk
You are going through a lot right now and I hope that you will be able to use the :bowl as part of a good support network.
Things seem so big right now but in time the panic of recovery does lessen. I am currently in recovery and, yes it's scary, but the benefits far outweigh the problems it creates.
As far as relaxation techniques go, try and make sure your shoulders are dropped as these are the first things to tense up in anxiety. Try to concentrate on your breathing and remember that the panic attack will not kill you and that it will pass.
I used to suffer from panic attacks regularly and they are infrequent now.
Keep posting.

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:hugonbilbo:hugoff
welcome to the :bowl! i know what you mean when you say that sometimes it feels like the ED is you and not just a problem. remember that NO ONE is an ED!! there are many :fishys here that once felt like their ED was just too big to tackle, but look at them now! many are recovered or far into recovery. dont you want to be one too?? recovery is like a new freedom, something we all deserve. take care!

[buttercup_fairie]

:hugon bilbo :hugoffwelcome to the :bowl i'm glad you joined. i know that it's tough finding out that you're anorexic(well, being diugnosed anyways) but you can get through this. the :bowl always offers love and support whenever you need it. i'm always here if you want to IM me or email me anytime alright?

as for relazing, try taking a nice warm bubble bath(with lots of bubbles :winky) or maybe sit down and read a good book. i find that coloring and writting(either storys or in my jounral) and swimming in the :bowl all help a lot. do something that you enjoy doing and it should help relax you. take care and keep fighting :love

[mckenna]

welcome ~i'm new too
so here's a big (((((squeeze))))))) for you


mica :sun

[punkprincess]

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hi there
congrats to you for seeing the doc, even if your husband kinda pushed you into it. nothing is too big for you ok? just realizing your prob shows just how strong you are and can be. things to do: well anything u like!! walking, reading, writing, drawing..the best thing for me is listening to music! maybe make a project for yourself? you could collect sayings and quotes to keep u strong...
you're husband cannot understand what you're going through, but let him love you:)
good luck, megs

[Allison LHF]

:sun Welcome :sun Bilbo :sun

Hope to get to know you and hear more from you soon. I had a therapist that actually made a relaxation tape for me for panic attacks. I don't remember what was on it, but eventually I found out that just listening to my own quiet music in complete darkness worked almost as well.

:bounce Allison :bounce

[GardenOfSimple]

:hugonbilbo:hugoff.
WELCOME TO THE :bowl!!!
I hope that you find it to be very supportive, as I and many other fishies have. I know what its like to seem like the eating disorder, but you do have to remember that its a PART of you... not who you are. My therapist (t) has me make sure I don't say "I'm anorexic" or "I'm bulimic", but instead "I have anorexia/bulimia/an eating disorder."
You need to remember that you don't have to conquer this thing in a day. And you don't have to do it all at once. If you take it one day at a time, its so much easier to deal with. Its really the only way to do it. (or one meal at a time, or whatever's necessary)
GOOD JOB at going to the doctor! Even if it wasn't really your choice, you are going through with it. Try to be honest. The only way people can help you is if they know what is REALLY going on. And, really, that's what people want to do for you... They want to help. They want to see you get through this. Maybe you can try letting at least some of your supporters know what's REALLY going on. Like I said, its the only way they can help you. They want to see you better, but TRUELY better... not a lie.
And, as for the relaxation... try deep breathing or coloring or writing or walking, listening to music. Also, I'm reading a book called "The Deadly Diet" on how to recover from eating disorders (eds) and it has stuff on relaxation and how to stop a panic attack and stuff (can't remember the panic attack stuff, and my best friend has the book becuase she's making me a relaxation tape from it... its part of the book). Maybe you can check that out.
Well... looking forward to swimming w/ you...

[pippen]

:hugon Bilbo :hugoff
Welcome to the :bowl