Scared About The Future

[SweetDreamer]

:ugh :boom

Hi all...how are you :fishy 's doin? Ok, this is my second post and I'm still a little unsure if I should be posting here. But anyways, I've dealt with anorexia, bulimia, binge/compulsive overeating for about four years now. Each one follows the next in no specific order so I haven't had a "break"-I haven't eaten normally for four years. I don't know if this happens to anyone else but I'll have an eating disorder for a long period of time and I start to get "bored" with it...and then i go into another one...well I'm a binge eater right now and I'm hardly bingeing, or even eating for that matter...I have no control anymore. I'm starting to starve myself and I really don't want to but something in me does. I don't wanna go through this anymore. I can't even look at myself in the mirror anymore. :ugh I really need support :fishy 's. I'm so tired of crying every night. I wish you luck in the battles you face everyday...lots of :love

:sad Caroline

[emma lucy]

:hugon Caroline :hugoff

I'm sorry you are going through such traumas at the moment concerning eating :sad
You say you get bored of one and flip to another. This is because you aren't dealing with the root cause of why you choose to use food as a coping mechanism. Once you've done this, you'll find that the need to switch between types diminishes.
I hope that you will find the support you need both in the :bowl and out of it.

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:hugonsweetdreamer:hugoff
hey i know what that feels like because ive been through all three of those ED's, in the same order too. it DOES get better if you want it to, but you really have to work at it. thats why the :bowl is here to give you tons of :fishy support. my :love goes out to you and hope you find :peace with yourself.