I'm new...introducing myself

[giovanna]

Hi...I'm Giovanna, it's taken me a while to decide to come to this board and post. I'm still grappling with the thoughts of whether or not I do indeed have anorexia. I'm thirty four years old and married. My family and friends have confronted me individually about my weight. My husband is beginning to get very angry about it and tells me daily. The problem is I just don't see it. Some days yes, I do feel like I am way, way too thin and then it could be six hours later and I think No, I'm not too thin. Is this a part of anorexia? I don't know a whole lot about it so I don't know if flip flopping back and forth about whether or not I'm too thin is a sign or symptom. I haven't discussed any of this with my doctor although at a vist last month he asked me if I thought I was too thin and I told him yes, I did think so and that I'd gain a few pounds, but that wasn't true. I have no intention of doing that. I feel fine and I do eat fairly decently. I'm not sure what steps I need to take because I just know that I'm not willing to gain at this point. I feel kind of silly even being here and typing this message. I wouldn't even know what to say to my doctor without feeling weird. I'm due for a physical next month and I'm fairly sure that he will mention something, but I feel really uncomfortable telling my doctor that I may have a problem. I think I feel that way because of my age. I know I'm not the only thirty something who is going through this but it just feels strange and I'm sure someone out there can relate. thanks for listening to me and I hope to be an active part of this board.

Giovanna

[emma lucy]

:hugon Giovanna :hugoff

Welcome to the :bowl

I was a bit confused by your post because I'm unsure as to whether your thinness is a result of food issues or whether something else has caused you to become thin.
Whatever the reason, I think it's important that you chat to your doc about your concerns because he can evaluate whether there is an ED problem bubbling under the surface.
As for your age, there are many over thirties in the :bowl and you will never feel alone here.
I hope you get to the root of this problem and that you will continue to post.

[giovanna]

Thanks for replying to my post. My weight loss was because I felt I needed to loose some weight. Others wouldn't agree with that but I felt I needed to be thinner. I tried and succeded in losing the weight I wanted to loose. I don't think that I see myself as others see me AT ALL. I'm sure alot of you can understand as I think that's a major part of the problem here. Like I said earlier, I sometimes feel like I'm too thin and get nervous and shortly thereafter I don't think that at all. I think that I'm thinking that because everyone is TELLING me that. Does that make any sense at all? I've never said 'think' so many times in the same sentence! LOL!

I want to look into it and I'd love to be able to SEE myself the way I truly look and perhaps not the way I see myself when I look in a mirror. I certainly don't want to get sick and I want to be o.k. I think I'm a fairly well adjusted woman and I can't understand this at all. That's not to suggest that people with ED's are not well adjusted if it sound that way.

My issues with food is avoiding things that I think are unhealthy and loaded with fat. I think my eating habits are more healthy than those of my family memebers to be perfectly honest with you. (any other Italians out there?) I get really upset when we're all together and eating (which goes hand in hand) and they act like I"m from another planet because I don't want to eat those things.

I hope everything I wrote is o.k. to post. As a newbie I'm a little nervous posting because I'm afraid I'll say something I shouldn't. I really do look forward to hearing from people I think it will help me sort this out and figure out what I need to do. Thanks so much : )

[*star]

:hugongiovanna:hugoff
hi! welcome to the :bowl. im soo glad you decided to post! i have to agree with emma lucy here, you should definitely tell your doctor whats going on. doctors arent there to judge you, but rather to help you. you mention avoided certain food and fear of gaining weight, but do you think there are other "hidden" causes for your ED? well take care, good luck! :love :clover

[giovanna]

Thanks for your reply. I don't know about any hidden reasons. If there are any, I haven't discovered them yet. I think probably one of the biggest reasons I'm reluctant to talk to the doctor is because of not knowing what he'll suggest. I have no idea what to expect and that is causing some anxiety. I have some time to prepare myself before my appointment which is what I'm trying to do I guess.

Thanks again : )
Giovanna