The loser that I am.

[peapers]

I'm feeling like such a loser. I went over to a friend's house on campus the other night where there was a small group of people hanging out, celebrating the fourth. We were playing this drinking game (totally under control, just for fun, don't worry) where each card you turn over has a little game to play. Like you all have to rhyme with a certain word or keep asking goofy questions until someone laughs or say something shocking or embarrassing that you've done. But I couldn't do it!

I'm a very reserved (well, some might say shy or quiet) person, and since I've just recently met and made friends with these people I'm still on my guard. I was so nervous about everyone at the table looking at me, waiting for me to say my answer that I couldn't think of any rhymes and my face turned bright red everytime I had to say a goofy question and I lost everytime I had to say something shocking because I just couldn't say it out loud to ALL THESE PEOPLE LOOKING AT ME, WAITING!

I think my awkwardness made everyone feel uncomfortable, and they probably wished they hadn't invited me to their party. I almost couldn't believe it when they called me to come over again a few days later! I don't deserve it, they're so much cooler/more fun than I am!
I was so proud of myself for making new friends, but all I am is a tag-along that can't even make their drinking game fun. : (
What kind of a college student am I!?!

[Jik]

Dear Peapers,


There is nothing wrong with being reserved. There is no rule in life that says you must be as each and every other person in life is.

Personally, I would have been reserved too if I had just made acquaintances with the majority of the people in attendance at this gathering. Trust and the letting down of our personal guards is something that happens over time.

It seems to be obvious that the impression that you made was not a negative one so try to be gentle with yourself.

Joy