Who would you write?

[Chriszgirl]

I was thinking :idea and wondered what i would say to all the people i have hurt since i began suff. from an ed. Well, i made a list.......i must say......it was pretty long:sad BUT, i noticed the first one on my list was myself! Yes i have hurt loved one's through all this, but i have hurt MYSELF more than anything...emtionally, physically, and spiritaully. So, i wrote a letter to myself....WOW!!!! :happy what a great freedom feeling :balloons Well, the question i want to know is who you :fishy would write an apology letter to.......I then proceeded to write my son, husband, and mother it explained deep insde feelings i just cannot say outloud, the lessons and hardships i have encountered just living and suffering in a very lonely world........i told my reasons for shutting them out and how i never meant to hurt them..i just had issues of control ,anger, depression, hurt, anxiety, fear, saddness, loneliness, pressure from work ,school, being a mom, wife, and trying to be perfect at ALL this.......it really helped:stars :stars

[fefa]

:hugon Chris :hugoff

I send you a note in another post, that pella wrote. Ok, first I guess I would write a letter to myself, apoligizing all the hurt I caused to me!!!! And maybe to my mom, because she is the only one who see what I suffer!!
Take care!!
:love

[GlitterieGurl]

I think I would write a letter to my family. I know how much this hurt all them with their worry over me. My parents had so many arguements night after night about me and me seeking help. They knew something was wrong but that I wouldn't stand to be helped at the time because I wanted to make sure that I was perfect. The fights got so bad among my family that my mother and father separated. I thought that it was entirely my fault because I caused all the tension among them. I stilll feel at fault for how much trouble I caused in their marriage. I would write to them how sorry I was for that, even though they still maintain that it was not my fault and that my ED had nothing to do with their separation. I would also have to write in great length an apology to my current boyfriend. He met me while I was recovering from my ED and I was unduely emotional. I broke up with him twice just because he would compliment me and I didnt believe him and thought he was lying to me. I would have to apologize to him for stirring up old memories of when his sister was sick with A/B. I would have to write to all of my family, especially my cousin because she stood by me and helped me out of my relationship that brought on my illness. (Thanks for taking him down for me!!!) I have been able to get back to being me and happy with my looks, attitude, and personality just how they naturally are. I think I hurt those people more than I hurt myself. I have been able to recover beautifully because of their strength, that I know I weakened because of how much they all loved me. I would like to say thank you now to all of them for being with me through all of this and I know I will never be able to pay back all that you have put into making me well again. I love you all!!!

~Elyse~

[Heart Of A Lion]

Definitely Amanda (my g/f). After that, I think I'd have to write a letter to her family. They took me into their home when I had no where else to go. They experience full-force what living with an Eating Disorder means. They took care of me, loved me, and supported me with all that they had. I will never forget that, they mean more to me than I could possibly express with a simple keyboard.

In addition to them, I would write a letter to my two younger brothers whom I'm sure I have confused, hurt, and worried beyond belief over the course of my Eating Disorder.

I would also write a letter to society in general. Since my Eating Disorder took over, I've become bitter to the ways of the world - even to the people that tried to help and support me. It turned me evil, uncaring, and simply rude. That isn't who I am, and that is not who I will be. The Eating Disorder that took control of me for so many years is currently facing execution within my soul. The good has taken over again, and I feel like a new person. I will beat it, I have no choice but to win this war.