Jik
06-14-2001, 12:53 PM
While the boards where down I like so many others explored the wonder we call the world wide web and one stop in my journey was a test. It was a test to see if one suffered from low self-esteem.
Once upon a time I would never have thought about taking this test. Heaven's knows that I wouldn't have even dreamed of risking confirmation of what I had thought of myself. But this time I said to myself. You feel like you have good self-esteem. You are using your voice, stating your needs and doing what you need to do to take care of yourself - so go for it.
I took the test. I was pleased to see that the questions that were asked I could honestly say no to and that is a no with definition. I was also a bit sadden to realize that yes indeed if I had taken this same test two years ago that most of the answers would have been yes.
I have to say that the majority of my trek into a postive frame of mind came from the viewpoint of taking back my power.
Simple things that others take for granted where the stones I stepped on to get here.
Giving myself permission to use sick time when I was sick instead of denying myself the rest needed.
Giving myself the right to say no to an event or situation that I truely wanted no part of.
But the biggest way I helped myself was to argue with myself. Every time I found myself calling myself a negative name I told myself to stop. I literally held conversations with myself offering the same advice and comforts that I would give anyone else. I also reminded myself that I was human just like my fellow man and that nothing that had been done to me took away my worth.
I sincerely hope that each and every one of us can get to this place I'm in and live here together because the sun is shining and even when it rains and gets windy I know that it will be back again some day.
Joy
Once upon a time I would never have thought about taking this test. Heaven's knows that I wouldn't have even dreamed of risking confirmation of what I had thought of myself. But this time I said to myself. You feel like you have good self-esteem. You are using your voice, stating your needs and doing what you need to do to take care of yourself - so go for it.
I took the test. I was pleased to see that the questions that were asked I could honestly say no to and that is a no with definition. I was also a bit sadden to realize that yes indeed if I had taken this same test two years ago that most of the answers would have been yes.
I have to say that the majority of my trek into a postive frame of mind came from the viewpoint of taking back my power.
Simple things that others take for granted where the stones I stepped on to get here.
Giving myself permission to use sick time when I was sick instead of denying myself the rest needed.
Giving myself the right to say no to an event or situation that I truely wanted no part of.
But the biggest way I helped myself was to argue with myself. Every time I found myself calling myself a negative name I told myself to stop. I literally held conversations with myself offering the same advice and comforts that I would give anyone else. I also reminded myself that I was human just like my fellow man and that nothing that had been done to me took away my worth.
I sincerely hope that each and every one of us can get to this place I'm in and live here together because the sun is shining and even when it rains and gets windy I know that it will be back again some day.
Joy