Saying no seems impossible

[Everyonesmom]

I feel out of control. I feel food controls me. I cannot stand the way I look and feel. Knowing how and being able to put into practice sometimes feels impossible. I worry about the way I look all the time. Even to the point lately I am having trouble sleeping at night. I feel like I am so gross to look at. I worry about loosing my husband because of my wieght. Now my middleschool daughter is worrying about herself and wieght. She is within her range but yet almost cries when she feels she has overeaten. She don't want to look like me. WHAT HAVE I DONE!!!

I don't know if this classifys as an eating disorder or not. I don't feel like anyone understands. Help. I need a friend who does.

[Juliana]

Hey! I understand exactly how you feel, even though I am only seventeen. I happen to know what it is like to feel that way. I do think that those feelings would clasify as a posible ed, so the sooner you get help, the better. I think that you should try to help yourself by saying positive affirmations (try the affirmations part of the site) to yourself everyday and by spending time doing things that you really enjoy with your family. I hope I helped some. And I wish you the best! :butterfly I know that you can do it, because after that first step to get help, it becomes easier to deal with, you jsut have to want to get better and believe in yourlsef!

Best Wishes,
Jules :love

[*star]

:hugoneveryonesmom:hugoff
welcome to the :bowl! it sounds like youre having some major self-esteem issues. :sad maybe it would help to see a therapist or counselor if its really bad, and like jules said, to repeat positive affirmations to yourself. if you have a good feeling about yourself, then your daughter will be more likely to like herself also. good luck! :clover

[emma lucy]

:hugon everyonesmom :hugoff

I agree with :stars and Juliana on this one.
The fact that your :fishy name is everyonemom indicates that you do not even feel as if you are your own person anymore.
Please reach out to a professional who can help put you back on the road so that you can :love yourself again.

[Everyonesmom]

Thankyou Juliana,
I have prayed that god will give me strength. I remember that in the bible it says his yoke is easy and his burden is light. I am trying. It is so hard. I have failed so much. I wonder if succeeding is really possible for me. Everyone else seems so much stronger and better than me. Please pray for me. I have made an appointment to see a psycologist. That was hard. But it is even harder to keep it and go. I have this thing with doctors. I don't think they don't understand how I feel or don't take me serious or they just think I am stupid .. I don't know. I really hate going.

[Juliana]

I just want to add that anytime you need a friend, you can email me...and it's true, it is very hard, but it is worth it, every bit of it. :bug
Congratulations for getting the courage to make the appoinment! :bounce
I will pray for you, and God will help you trhough the struggle. :stars Please believe in yourself, I know it's hard, but complete happiness is possible for everyone. :happy I hope the appoinment turns aut well, please keep us posted!!

Love,
Jules :love

[emma lucy]

:hugon everyonesmom :hugoff

Thinking of you and hoping the appointment goes well :clover

[Victorian_Girl]

I can relate to this so much except I think my own behaviors have affected my parents and my friends. I feel as though my eating problems and self esteem issues have rubbed off on them. I am very self conscience and whenever I go places, I took to the rest room to make sure I look okay. I feel gross all the time. I guess it's best not to inward and to try to latch your attention onto the things around you instead of on you. That is what I have been trying to do. Maybe if you try to give your daughter some compliments, she would start to feel better. Don't blame yourself for her feeling bad though. She could have been influenced by other things like her friends or models or actresses or maybe she read a diet magazine. I hope this message doesn't come out all wrong. I don't mean to offend. hugs
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