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[kelbrooks]

Well, as my second post, this is strange to me. I too am one of those that feels too fat to have an ed, but I know that I must, because otherwise I could make the voice go away. I'm scared because I spiral between recovery and relapsing. Last time I tried to figure out what my ed was, I was considered anorixia athletica, which isn't technically a division yet, but I digress. What I want to know is if it's usual to develop these things later in life. I can't figure out what changed, but for me my ed started in college, before that I never once had a problem with how I looked. Is that odd?
Well, here's hoping that anyone has an opinion.

[emma lucy]

:hugon Kel :hugoff

You don't say how old you are, but it is totally possible to develop an ED at any time of life. From young children to seventy year old women, this illness can strike.
Most people feel they are too fat to have an ED, but if you are thinking that way, there must be some truth that you do suffer from an ED.
What is important is the underlying reasons for developing it.

:edbgone

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:hugonkel:hugoff
hey, you dont need to be catergorized under a certain kind of ED to have one. theres anorexia, bulimia, coe, and a huge huge spectrum in between with no names. and like you said, you think youre too fat to have an ed, and that in itself may be an indicator that you have one. please take care of yourself!

[kelbrooks]

I forgot to say that I'm twenty, turning twenty-one this year. I've take that test that they have on this website, and scored high enough that I should go see a therapist, but there isn't one here that I feel comfortable with, and I can't see one when I go back to school or I might loose my athletic scholarship. I go back and forth, the voice is always there, but sometimes, recently for the last two months, I'm able to ignore it, it's just recently that it's started to win again. Anyone have any suggestions that don't involve seeing a nutritionist?

[piscesfriend]

If you are worried about protecting your scholarship, you should think about the fact that you could not only lose it by seeing a therapist, but also by becoming so enthralled in the disorder that you can't keep up with your athletic program anyway.

You must reach out to someone. If it's not a therapist, tell someone (a family member or friend) that you trust. You are old enough that your peers will likely be mature enough not to take it the wrong way. Have faith in the people you love. They love you too :)

Once you reach out, you will feel so much better, more supported. Just make that first step. Much will come of it.

Best of luck

Amanda