dumb dumb me

[mwkat]

:fishy 's Sorry about my last post...it was dumb and I don't know why I even wrote it. It probably should have been on a different board.

Well, I'm leaving on my trip tomorrow for two weeks so I won't be posting anything on here for a bit. I should probably just shut my mouth..but i just feel like thinking aloud right now. so if you don't want to hear it you can log off of it..i would expect you to anyways..since i'm dumb..and nobody likes me. :sad

For some reason I think that everyone here in the :bowl hates me...or thinks I shouldn't be here. I feel like with every post I write people despise me even more. I don' know if I want recovery anymore. One moment I do, and the next I don't . argg..i can never decide anything. I dont' know why I even try anymore. NOthing ever is going to work out. I don't even know why I'm writing this. i'm going to go now..seeya :fishy 's

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mwkat

[JenniferO]

:hugonmwkat:hugoff

:stars first of all, i hope that you have a wonderful trip!! be good to yourself while you are vacationing! :stars

it's ok that you are thinking out loud. it's actually good, and i don't think you're dumb, nor do i hate you!

you can recover! you've got to believe in yourself. start by saying good things about yourself in place of those negative things. try something for me, for just a day, k? everytime you think something negative about yourself, say to yourself, "no, i'm not {place thought here}. i am beautiful and smart. i deserve happiness. " just try it, and see how it feels. :cute

you are worthy. take care of yourself.

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:hugonmwkat:hugoff
hey!! no one hates you! we're all :fishys in this :bowl, supporting each other! and the :fishys gotta stick together! :grin dont give up hope. things WILL get better if you make them better. have fun on your trip! take care!!

[emma lucy]

:hugon mwkat :hugoff

Have a great holiday and be good to you :grin

[piscesfriend]

mwkat,

You are loved here by all of us. You belong, you are special, you deserve the friendship that we offer you. You are not dumb, you are very smart. Do you know why? Because you're here! :) You're seeking help and support by coming here and talking with the :fishy s, and that means you're helping yourself. You're taking positive steps toward recovery. Please don't deny yourself the love and support that the :bowl can offer! We want to see you succeed, recover, find happiness, and love life. Any you WILL do all of those things. Let us help you to be strong, to fight off the EVIL ED, and to find peace. We are all here for you, and we love you like a sister. Be strong. I hope you see these replys when you get back from vacation.

:love Amanda