Back to the old habits

[racersgirl]

I have had my ed since before i was in high school and will be graduating college this December. My boyfriend and i celebrate a year this month and he has known about ed since the beginning. At first he was more supportive but now is more getting annoyed with it. I try to recover but our lives are just so busy that i slip back in. I have dropped to my lowest weight in years, a fact that he is not happy with. He can't understand that even though i weigh so little i can still see myself as fat, and will skip meals, but when i do eat i eat a bunch of junk food to stay hyper. I work in a coffee shop and drink a ton of coffee. I also just admitted to him today of some bulimic activities. I just don't know what to do. I have told my Dr. about my ed and she had me do some blood work and says if i lose any more weight she is sending me to Boston for in-patient treatment. Thing is, I dont want to go to IP, since then I would not be with my bf, who I currently live with. I guess I am just at wits end and not sure what to do. My life has gotten stressful with the economic and hours getting cut at work and school and just trying to make ends meet. I fall back on the one thing that I can rely on, and that is ed. I don't want to go to ip...i want to enjoy going to the race track weekly and we are getting a house soon.

[robynsmom]

are you going to any kind of therapy? i need to listen to my own advice on this, but that should probably be your first step. and take your boyfriend with you. then he will understand more that what he is doing/saying is not helpful at all. and if your doc feels like IP would be the best thing for you, i wouldn't try to fight it. i know you don't want to miss school/work/time with the bf, but if it's what is best for you, you'll be living such a better quality of life afterwards that it will all be worth it

[bellydancer]

Racers,
It's great that your boyfriend is supportive. I can understand why he'd be frustrated. It's frustrating to watch someone you love hurt themselves. And that frustration doesn't mean that he doesn't support you. But think of it this way--if he wants you to be healthy why would staying home from treatment give you?

Don't you think it would be worth it to give a few weeks of your life to get into a healthier place (which, could, by the way, save your life)? Won't this mean that the time you spend with your boyfriend after treatment will be better because you're likely to be in a stronger place in recovery?