having a hard time reading more of it?

[xcfruitbat]

I've heard that Wasted by Marya Hornbacher is the end-all be-all of books about ED, and I had been meaning to read it for a while.
What's odd is that I can't do it. I read the first four or five pages once, a few weeks ago at a bookstore, and I had to put it back because it made me feel really, really uncomfortable. I couldn't tell what kind of emotion it was, but it's keeping me away from it. I was able to relate to a lot simply in those first few pages, and suddenly I felt disgusted and now I can't make myself read any more of it.
It's a really odd feeling and I get it every time I see it on the shelf at the bookstore because part of me still wants to read it but I physically can't make myself open it.
Has anyone else felt that? I haven't recovered yet, so do you think maybe it's easier to read about it once you've recovered?

[Millificent]

Many people find Wasted to be extremely triggering. It's not a book I would recommend to anyone who is currently struggling with an ED (and now that I'm recovered, I have no interest in re-reading it). There is no reason to force yourself through this.

:dragon Millie

[xcfruitbat]

Yeah I'm def. not planning on making myself read something that does that to me! -- but I found it so strange that it could affect me like that.

[paintbox]

No, what you're describing is very understandable. Wasted is unbelievably graphic ... as Millie said, I wouldn't recommend anyone who is struggling with ED to read it.
I do think it's easier/better to read it when you're in a secure state of recovery. I think it's best use is to show non-ED sufferers the pure hell of having an extreme ED, though.