fasting (may be triggering)

[ZoeyJubilee]

I've been trying to normalize my eating, something suggested in the bulimia books I purchased. But it's just been awful. Either I feel completely giddy about eating the foods Ive denied myself while dieting, or I just want to take extreme measures to correct eating them.
In the past, I've always done juice fasts. Now although I know they're controversial, I've never seen them as a tool for dieting, but more as a detox (which is their purpose). I've always felt so much better after doing them, partly because I felt light, but mostly because I honestly believe they're healthy and beneficial, give you energy, etc (I know most of you won't agree with me.) Is it really bad to go on one for two days or so while trying to normalize eating. Is that my ed talking? I just really really want to... for my peace of mind.

[Whitecat]

It is Ed talking.

Detoxing is just the same as purging. It may sound like a tempting solution to "getting on track" but, obviously, it didn't help you in the past. I don't want to sound harsh as I type this, it is just that I have been there before, and it sounds like Ed is performing another manipulation. Fasting, detoxing or other types of food control diet things are Ed with a different mask on. It is a "quick fix" for a problem that is going to take more than a couple days to get over. Please take this from someone who has been there and lied to myself too long. It kept me obsessed with food and what I was putting in myself. It is so easy to get caught up in what some people call healthy, you know? My sister in law is a holistic nutritionist and I though she understood Ed. She suggested I do a cleanse, because she did. I think, oh yeah, I have all this bad stuff in me, I need to get rid of it, I want to do it! Hmm, that sounds similar to b/p, a little tooo similar.

Have you ever seen a dietitian/nutritionist? I found it really helpful to have someone help me with what to eat, how much and when. It was helpful also to have a meal plan for the day after a binge, so that I do not set myself up to continue the cycle. I hope that you are taking care of yourself, and again, I didn't mean to sound harsh, I just wish someone would have redirected me before I went down the detox/fasting path.
keep swimming!!!
Much love,
Whitecat