A mess my dog is in the ER

[Freetobe-Me]

:cry :cry :cry

Ok so I am a mess. My dog is in the ER right now on oxygen and I am a wreck. He has been having heart problems. and my mom just called me and this morning he was not beathing well, his tongue was blue. I am not ready to lose him. He is like my baby. I also don't want him to suffer. I hate that I am not at home. I really want to get in my car and go. But I know that there is no point until we know more. I don't know what I will do if we lose him. He has been such a bundle of joy. I know that he is old and that he is getting near the end of his life, but I really am not ready for him to go. i just can't handle this right now

Free

[Freeway]

:hugon :hugon Freetobe-Me :hugoff :hugoff

I'm so sorry to hear about your dog's condition. :sad I'll be praying for your dog and for you too. Please do take care of yourself. Be sure to keep us posted.

:gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug

Freeway :love

[shihtzuxtwo]

:hugon :hugon Freetobe-Me :hugoff :hugoff

i'm sorry to hear about your baby. when you love them so much, it so hard to handle their illnesses. hope you're both doing better.

[Hart]

((((Free))))

My thoughts are with you. They are like family, sure get under are skin and in our hearts. But whatever happens I bet you gave him a great life full of lots of love:gimmehug :gimmehug

[Freetobe-Me]

:cry :cry :cry

I am really a mess. Tucker died. He was doing better. Seemed to be turning around and then his heart just gave out. I miss him so much already. I can't imagine going home to my mom's and having the house be empty. I know that he was really sick. we thought that he was getting better, but the vet said that his white cell count was crazy high. So in many ways this is a blessing that he passed on his own. I just feel like i have a hole in my heart without him

Free

[Hart]

((((FREE))))
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[shihtzuxtwo]

(((((Free)))))))

i am so, so sorry that tucker didn't make it - and that your heart is broken because you loved him so and have to say goodbye.

(((((tucker))))))

[Freetobe-Me]

Thank you everyone for your replies. I am trying to hang in there the best I can. I just keep crying though. Random things keep making me cry. I don't know what to do to get my mind off of this. I hurt a lot right now. to say the least, I am not good at greiving. I can't even seem to numb this away

Free

[CLN]

oh sweetie I am so sorry. I wish I could take away your pain. I wish there was something to make this easier.

keep writing here

((((hugs)))

[BeagleGirl]

my heart goes out to you.
I know too well what you are going through.
I know how badly it hurts - like having your heart ripped out (I have said before it's worse than any physical pain .... or perhaps it IS physical, and the worst kind of physical pain!)

Please let yourself mourn TUcker... when those waves of grief strike you - it's ok to feel it. It's ok if you need to get down on the floor and kick your feet and cry (i've done that)... or curl up in a ball and wail... eventually you will end up exhausted maybe, but you will get through it. I think it helps me to move on when I talk about it -and let myself feel the pain and grief... but it may take time. You will make it through though...

I am not writing real coherently tonight, sorry this is not better organized.
I just couldn't not reply to what you had written.
I am so sorry.

[LittleIdabee]

My heart goes out to you, :hugon Free :hugoff I am so sorry to hear about your doggie. I know how devistating it is to loose a loving pet. :sad Let yourself grieve, honey. The best thing that you can do is let yourself feel and cry as much as you need...

I am here with loads of :gimmehug and an :ear if you want to talk more about your sweet dog and how you are feeling. In the meantime, I'm thinking of you. :dog

:gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug :gimmehug

[Freetobe-Me]

:hugon CLN, Debbie, Little :hugoff

I wanted to thank you for your thoughts and relpies. I only have a minute because i have to go to class. But I am :touched my the warm thoughts. I am hanging in there. I think I will probably be hit harder when I go home to my moms and he is not there. I do ok most of the time like I said but then there are random things that make me cry. Thank you again

:love

Free

[lovingspirit]

Free~

I'm so sorry for your loss. I experienced something very similar with my beloved black lab six years ago when he suffered with congestive heart failure. We made the choice to put him down and gave him the gift of peace. It nearly killed me and my dh. We grieved for a very long time.

You said you don't do well with grieving but you're doing a great job if you let it run it's course.

I wanted to share something with you that helped me with the loss of my dog. You may have already seen this but I wanted to send it to you.

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Author unknown...

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

[heartbreak]

Is there something you can plan ahead of time, before you go home, to help ease the pain of entering the house without Tucker? When I went to my parents house after my mom died (I was there when she died, but didn't go back for a few months), I had a really hard time. The next time I went back, I had a plan that distracted me until I felt comfortable. This may sound dumb, but I cleaned. Cleaned a lot. Changed bedding that probably didn't need to be changed, actually scrubbed the inside of the washing machine, polished my dad's shoes. That may not be your thing, but maybe there is something else you could do to make the transition easier? Soemthing that allows you time to think about things but also gives you something specific to focus on if you need it. :gimmehug