support please

[isobel]

has anyone else found that when they made the effort to stop or decrease self injury that their support system pretty much went out the window? :mad i feel like since i made the effort to stop my T is now basically inaccessible. before, she would jump through hoops to be there and now she is never around, not to mention on vacation more than she is practicing (although that has always been the case, i guess...) she does take calls on vacation b/c she is on vacation so very much.

anyway, i feel like it is harder to stop than to do it and i don't have anyone to fall back on anymore. my boyfriend is the same way. why do people assume you are OK if you are trying to get better? maybe it is just me--maybe i am just pathetic and need lots of support. :sad

i don't think stopping is in my best interest if it means i lose a coping mechanism and i lose all my real time support. this has been a horrid week and i feel like i am going to just lose it if i don't cut or burn. i have made it eleven days now but if i don't think it is worth it. not when i am all alone.

i know i should be able to do this by myself, but i can't right now so i wonder if that means i just chose the wrong time to stop??

:love isobel

[Seabiscuit]

:hugon:love:hugon:peace:hugon:angel ISOBEL :angel:hugoff:peace:hugoff:love:hugoff


Dearest Isobel,

CONGRATULATIONS :balloons:kick:stars:edbgone to you on trying to decrease/stop self injuring! WOW - I cant imagine how hard that is - and you deserve so much credit for taking positive steps in that direction because it must be scary in a way to give up something that you have turned to and used as a habit - I am so happy for you!

I am really sorry that not more people are being supportive of you when you need them :ugh Sadly - I have found the same thing when I have felt suicidal - that all the people in the world that I had thought I had to call on anytime dwindled down to very few. But you know what is really cool :cool ? I can tell you - I learned to develop a strong self - to rely on myself for support! To back myself up and do good things for me and help myself out and know when I needed to rest and journal or do something outdoors or take a PRN medicine or take deep breaths - take a bath - get some cool shower stuff - buy a lil something for me - hug my teddy bear, get my hair or my nails done - get a great lotion or body spray - SAY POSITIVE AFFIRMATIONS ! Read Scriptures! Browse bookstores, librarys - get cool stickers - remind myself of how far I have come and how much I have to be proud of and how many people love me - look at old letters/cards - write down things unique only to me - think about funny things - TAKE CARE OF YOU! (((((((((((((((ISOBEL))))))))))))))))
hang in there - send me an email/keep me posted hon!