A letter to my babies

[Calletta]

To my dear three babies

I loved each of you deeply and completely and I mourn your loss as only a mother can. I made a mistake though ~ I believed that God took you away, I believed that you were stolen from me. I was wrong. Even though you were here living in me, even though you were a part of my own flesh and blood, you could only ever belong to God just as I do and something that doesn't belong to me could never be wrongly taken away.

Each human being is fragile, delicate and ultimately will fail, physically, mentally... It's only a matter of time. I was blessed to have those precious moments with you, though I'll never know what you would've looked like or heard you laugh or cry. Still, you were here once, inside me, closer than any other human being ever could be, and for that I am grateful beyond measure.

I forgive you for having bodies that weren't able to live until you could be safely born. I forgive myself for having been unable to save you, though I wanted to desperately. I forgive every other mother who I walk by and have to watch with her child there in the present day. I forgive God for doing what was right for reasons I can never understand and taking what was his.

I know your souls are around me and with me always and I love you always.


:love:flower:love

Your mom ~ B xxxx

:candle Sky :angel September Seventeenth Two Thousand and One :flower

:candle Holly Natasha :angel June Eighteenth Two Thousand and Six :flower

:candle :angel September Twenty-eight Two Thousand and Six :flower


I hope it is okay to post this letter here ~ I just needed to share what is going on within me just now.

[annebear]

Calletta,
Hello sweetie! I just wanted to send you some gentle hugs during this difficult and painful time. Your letter reminds me just how fragile life is. Thank you so much for sharing how you are feeling. You are a brave woman. Take care.
Hugs,
annebear

[WORTH-It]

Calletta,

I cannot imagine the amount of suffering you must feel in your heart at this time. I have never experienced such a loss. I send my condolences to you and your family. Your letter to your babies was so touching.

I'm sure your little ones are with our Heavenly Father smiling down upon you right now.

I believe they are in Paradise waiting patiently until the day comes when they will finally get to meet you; their mother. And what a joyous occassion that will be!

[sphinxie]

What a beautiful letter.

[ColdMirrorsLies]

Fist off, I just wanted to say how truly sorry I am for your loss. My mom miscarried my twin sister at seven months, so I know just a bit about the pain it causes.

There is a wonderful song by the group "watermark" about dealing with miscarrying. I highly recommend that you listen to it. The lyrics are::

Glory Baby, You slipped away
As fast as we could say baby, baby
You were growing, what happened Dear,
You disappeared on us baby, baby

Heaven will hold you before we do
Heaven will keep you safe
Until we're home with you Until we're home with you

CHORUS
We miss you everyday, miss you in every way
But we know there's a day when we will hold you, we will hold you
And you'll kiss our tears away, when we're home to stay
*We can't wait for the day when we will see you, we will see you
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you, until mom and dad can hold you*
You'll just have heaven before we do
You'll just have heaven before we do

Sweet little baby, it's hard to understand it
Cause we are hurting, we are hurting
But there is healing, and we know we're stronger people
Through the growing, and in knowing

All things work together for our good
And God works his purposes
Just like he said he would, just like he said he would

CHORUS

BRIDGE
I can't imagine Heaven's lullabies
And what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing
Heaven is your home
And it's all you'll ever know, all you'll ever know

CHORUS


You are in my thoughts and prayers!