Scary school trip to Berlin

[Forget-Me-Not]

I'm going to Berlin at the start of July for five days with nine other people in my German class, and I'm v. worried that my stupid ed and si stuff are going to conspire to mess things up...

I "get away with" restricting in school time because, as I do so much extra-curricular stuff I'm just like "No, I'm not going to the dining hall because I've got...today" and then at home I always have a headache, or ate a late lunch, or I'm just not hungry, or I'm going out. And I know it's messed up, and I know it's unhealthy, and I know I kinda had it kicked for a while so I can, doubtless, beat it again. But the problem is, short of a dirty great big stomping miracle (possibly with choirs of angels...) my ed is going to be very much present during the trip.

People already stare enough at my si scars, and I really don't want people thinking I'm some raving loon.... But what makes it worse is there are some REALLY skinny people going, and that's always hard for me not to restrict as an automatic reaction to their thinness.

Aaarghh!!!!!!! I really don't know what to do! I don't want to let this mess my trip up - the only holiday I'm having this year.

Wibble.

Forget-Me-Not

[emma lucy]

:hugon Forget Me Not :hugoff

Please don't let the ED ruin your holiday. Try and make this a time of enjoyment and not a time for working out how you are going to avoid mealtimes.

It's always hard when you go away not to allow the ED to interfere but as this is your only holiday, it would be such a shame if you let the ED rule your life during such a short time.

And it's only five days. Five to days to celebrate the end of exams and take part in German culture.

Seize the chance to be free.

:edbgone