Noise

[silmarillion]

:trigger (discomfort around food and eating)


Why does eating have to make so much noise? I hate it, it disgusts me. I can't cope being around other people eating when there's no other noise to mask it.

I'm bad enough with other people eating anyway, half the time I feel angry at them for being able to eat when I can't...but sometimes I feel almost disdainful of them, like I've achieved something better than they have, because they're eating and I'm not.

The noise just makes things worse. Just that horrible chewing noise, or slurping....I can't stand it and if I am trying to eat something at the same time it becomes impossible because it's all just so disgusting.

Ugh. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be able to share meals with anyone else.

[bellydancer]

I'm bad enough with other people eating anyway, half the time I feel angry at them for being able to eat when I can't...but sometimes I feel almost disdainful of them, like I've achieved something better than they have, because they're eating and I'm not.

You should realize that these are eating disordered thoughts--these are your own product and are not related to anything anyone has done.

Why does the noise bother you so much?

[bucketbrain]

I'm not sure I can give any practical suggestions on this one - but I :ear you on this one. I really struggle with it too. I think when I first became aware of the noise I was suddenly horrified that I was making the same noises.

I'm trying to :digdeep on this - and its hard. Does the noise bother people without ed's????

[Ella K]

Wow, I thought I was the only one who felt like this! When I'm restricting I can't bear the sound of other people eating. Today I was eating an apple and I just sat there absolutely disgusted at the sound it made. I couldn't stop thinking that my friend (who was sitting in the room with me, watching TV) must hate me for making so much noise eating. It really makes me want to not eat in front of other people :sad

Ella xxx

[Tiffy]

I don't really have any wise words on this matter, but I wanted to let you know that I :ear you, and you're definitely not alone. I can't stand eating in front of other people because if I can hear myself chewing I'm afraid that it must disgust them a great deal. Deep down I know these are eating disordered thoughts, but it really annoys me sometimes. Same goes for when I can hear others eating their food, I just can't stand the noises, maybe we both need to :digdeep on this issue, and see what bothers us so much about this. :ohboy :gimmehug & :love -Tiffany

[Xiquita]

I can relate freaking with the noise I make eating. I personally link it with the fact that it makes me realize that I'm human, not perfect, I have needs, basic needs and consequentely very basic behaviors like eating and making noise. :shaun hope this was clear :winky .

:lubdub
Xica

[liningcare]

oh boy... same thing here. :P I can't stand it when I hear my family eating - I get nauseus and feel like *I*'m the one who's getting all the food stuffed down my throat. That's one tough perception to change.

[silmarillion]

Thank you all so much for replying, it always seemed that I was the only person who felt like this!

I don't know if it is part fo the ED thoughts or not...I've felt like this about the noise of chewing for nearly as far back as I can remember, long before my eating started to get remotely disordered. Just now the ED thoughts make the whole thing so much worse.

As for why it bothers me...I couldn't really explain it. Just hearing that noise kind of makes my skin crawl.

[LittleIdabee]

Hey, I thought I was the only one who struggled with this! I thought it was just a weird quirk, but I guess it's a common ED symptom? I don't have any advice on how to get over the noise irritation, but whenever I eat I listen to music. Right now I can't eat without it. It is a good distraction anyway, but it also covers up the sound enough to make it harder to pay attention to. I find that if I don't have the music, it's almost like the noise is ampliphied and just feeds the ED because I keep thinking about what I am eating. Ugh. So annoying.