JennyA
06-21-2001, 10:32 PM
I am so low, like I fel worthless!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My bestfriend is always with her boyfriend latley, never wants to go out. thats fine i guess. and my other best friend of **** years is always saying she ll do stuff with me then goes out and blows me off, never calls me. she went to college for a year , and ever since she's been back I never here from her :reallymad.
I know people change but we were the best of best friends. We were so much alike. It's probably my fault, b/c when i had my ED shhe confronted me and told everyone and i dis attatched myself, then she never use to like to hang out b/c i use to go out and was into the rave scene. but that was aa whole year ago, i stoped for her! And i knoww thats my fault, but how can she blow me off, we were so close. I feel so lonely my boyfriend and I are growing apart , my mother abondoned me **** years ago, didnt even call me on my b/day, and now her! I feel so lonley, I never felt so alone. I keep myself distracted all day but when this happens I'm all by myself and i think too much. I feel so old, im growing up to fast and things are changing way too much, people are changing way to much, ive changed for the better, but i feel like i got left behind......sorry to be so down, i think when I post messages I do it to get stff out of me, let it all out, when there is no one to call or talk to i just type a way :touched.
I'm sorry I promise I am going to post more positve messages.........I feel a little less down already :flower
well one good thing Is i got up off my butt and got a job as a camp councler, which seems like alot of fun that will keep me active and busy all day. Might make me happy teaching kids stuff, and heling them.
thanks so much for listening
:ear
:love Luv to all!! :love
My bestfriend is always with her boyfriend latley, never wants to go out. thats fine i guess. and my other best friend of **** years is always saying she ll do stuff with me then goes out and blows me off, never calls me. she went to college for a year , and ever since she's been back I never here from her :reallymad.
I know people change but we were the best of best friends. We were so much alike. It's probably my fault, b/c when i had my ED shhe confronted me and told everyone and i dis attatched myself, then she never use to like to hang out b/c i use to go out and was into the rave scene. but that was aa whole year ago, i stoped for her! And i knoww thats my fault, but how can she blow me off, we were so close. I feel so lonely my boyfriend and I are growing apart , my mother abondoned me **** years ago, didnt even call me on my b/day, and now her! I feel so lonley, I never felt so alone. I keep myself distracted all day but when this happens I'm all by myself and i think too much. I feel so old, im growing up to fast and things are changing way too much, people are changing way to much, ive changed for the better, but i feel like i got left behind......sorry to be so down, i think when I post messages I do it to get stff out of me, let it all out, when there is no one to call or talk to i just type a way :touched.
I'm sorry I promise I am going to post more positve messages.........I feel a little less down already :flower
well one good thing Is i got up off my butt and got a job as a camp councler, which seems like alot of fun that will keep me active and busy all day. Might make me happy teaching kids stuff, and heling them.
thanks so much for listening
:ear
:love Luv to all!! :love