what am i?

[iamdenise]

Hi all, I'm new here. I don't know which board I belong to so I'm posting here for some answers (hopefully). I am in the average weight for height. I HATE being average. I try hard to restrict what I eat sometimes - like somedays I'll only eat a muffin. Other days, I eat normally and feel okay. Still other days, I'll eat normally and purge. Either way, the result is the same - I feel like a cow. My doctor diagnosed me as bulimic but I don't purge often at all. What would YOU say I am?
((HUGS TO ALL THOSE WHO NEED THEM))

[HippieChick]

You are like the rest of us here in the :bowl, struggling with an eating disorder. I've been struggling with an eating disorder for almost fifteen years and I still don't know what I have :ugh. I just know that I have issues with food and with my self esteem.

Don't label yourself with a particular eating disorder, because you are so much more than that. Our eating disorder are a part of us, but they are not us if that makes any sense.

I think I may be rambling :muhaha.

It doesn't matter what eating disorder you have, it matters that you know you have one and you work hard at getting rid of it.

:love Adrienne

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:hugondenise:hugoff
hey welcome to the :bowl! while i cant tell you what ed you have, i can tell you that you do need to get help for it. but does it matter what kind of ed it is? an ed is an ed is an ed.. none better/worse than another. all eds need treatment. take care of yourself :grin

[mini_maz]

hi denise dont try **** pegion hole urself(im v.bad at spelling so please bear wiv me!) every one has their ups and downs its sometimes just happens **** happen **** u more bcoz of ur ed i know wot u mean bcoz i was diagionsed as an anorixic and some days i binge and other times i go **** ages with out a thing u just need **** find a balance between the two and DONT hate urself!i bet ur lovely!a good song **** listen **** when u feel bad is video by indian igee its bin played alot on radio one:singing
when i look in the mirror the one there is me/every feckle on my face is where its supposed to be/and i know my creator didnt make no mistakes on me/my feet my lips my eyes im loving what i c
hope this helps maz

[hmm]

wow its like your post could have been me!
im also just like you in terms of eating, and i also really really battle with thefact that im normal. it makes me feel like i have no right to say i have an ed....also its easier to turn to people when you LOOK physically like you need it, since EDsare hard enough to underdstand when u don't look normal!!

i went to the defs of EDS on this site, they are so helpful. I think youre EDnos, go look it up and u'll see yourself there! its important to try and break away from the whole label thing tho, cos the labels are only there to help and define what treatment you need, not to slot u into a category, cos most people with an ED cant be.
I recently started therapy which, if u ever want to get better, i recommend! its really difficult eps. since i feel i dont have the right to it, cos im not underweight, but honestly, one never can defeatan ED all by yourself. So think about it...
keep posting!
love hmm
p.s. hugs to u
p.p.s my e-mail is alex****_********@hotmail.com
so use it if u want!

[JenniferO]

:hugoniamdenise:hugoff

first of all :stars WELCOME!:stars to the :bowl!
:sly
you sound a lot like me. you definitely have an ed. it's probably ednos, but it doesn't matter what your diagnosed with, you still have an eating disorder and you deserve to have help.
it doesn't matter what weight you are, you can still have a problem and even be unhealthy! it would be good to go to the dr...and be honest with him/her...reach out for the help you need! good :clover and take care of yourself!

jEnNiFeR

[JennyA]

Hi, welcome
i am new to this site too. when I was irsst diagnosed i was actully in denial i guess because i didn't think that i was doing anything different then every other teenage girl in america. It took me a wile to cme to terms with the diagnosis, then after i did that, i had a peace of mind and it helped me get better. i dont know if i'm actually giving any advice or if i'm making sense, its really late.

But good luck with recovery, email me i you need to talk , and don' t live by the definiton of your ED, you are your own person, and it dosn''t define who you are, it just a med. term proffesionals use to define what you have...so they know how to treat you.

good luck :clover
:hugon hugs&kisses :hugoff
your not alone
Jenn :monkey

[dusty]

:hugon Denise :hugoff

Welcome to the :bowl

I too do not fit neatly into a category of ed, and it has taken me a while (too long) to accept help because of this. You should remember that an ed is an ed and every ed belongs to a different person so therefore, each ed is different and needs treating.

Don't get hung up on this issue, just get on with fighting it.

Take care of yourself,
:love :love :love