bravelilpita
01-04-2006, 08:34 PM
I've been struggling with my ED for seven years, since I was fifteen. I have a ten month old daughter, and I am out of school for winterbreak until the end of the month...right now we're living with my father, which is completely not helping, as he was one of the reasons I started with the ED, and we're all staying a hotel while his house gets work done to it. The hotel is in the middle of no where, and I don't have a car. :shaun (sorry...I just like the sheep icon) So...basically we just sit around all day in the hotel room. It doesn't bother me too much, because these days I'm usually too tired to go out anyway. I just feel so guilty about not taking my daughter out. I try to justify it by telling myself it's too cold to take her out anyway (usually in the mid twenties here) and there's no where we could go anyway...but all I do when she's napping is b/p, and I don't know how to slow down. I feel like I'm going downhill faster than I ever have, and I'm not sure where to turn. I don't want to give my father any reason to try to get custody of my daughter (I know he's just waiting for me to fail at something) so I don't want to tell him whats wrong. I'm trying to figure out if my insurance will pay for a T, but I haven't found one that takes it yet. Ahh!!! I'm driving myself insane. I just feel achy all over, and I look like a ghost...I have bruises all over my arms and legs, and I don't want to do it anymore.
I'm trying SO HARD to be positive about all of this...but I am just running out of energy FAST. Any suggestions? :sad
I'm trying SO HARD to be positive about all of this...but I am just running out of energy FAST. Any suggestions? :sad