soydovelove
07-13-2005, 02:09 AM
I hate you for hating me, for touching me for feeling me for knowing me I hate you for seeing me for using me for abusing me I hate you for lying to me so I hide from you, your face I don’t remember I don’t want to remember you voice telling me that it is ok that I should just relax to take turns with her to let the tension go to let my shirt go so that I may be what you need a pleasure tool and a used girl who knew no better than to want your attention to love what you gave me to think that what you were doing was right it was wrong of you to use me and now I am useless I can not be here in this world were its everywhere I turn they want me they tease me so I give them and I let them and I cry when they leave me alone in a world that hates me no more than I loathe myself for allowing you to find me and hold me in your arms one more time I miss you I need you to tell me what your thinking to give me one more insight which turns in to you in me pressing deeper in to my soul that is lost without you and because of you I cry and I hurt myself to numb the pain that you caused me and gave me and I thanked you for lulling me into the trap which I am still in-twined in.