why is it so hard

[dork]

ok, its another day today and has started fine. i am trying my best not to think about my ED. But i have this question, why..why is it so hard to get out of all this. I know i wont b/p for a few days and then suddenly, i will lose my self control and give it all up. I have an appointment with a physician next week, and i am not sure if i should go. He will monitor me, check my weight, will find that i am underweight and then ask me to gain some weight, which i just cant do. I dont want to become fat, its very easy for me to gain weight, and then my face will look chubby and heavy and my jeans wont fit..and i just cant take people telling me , " hey girl, u have gained some weight"...i hate those words..
How should i change my attitude...my thinking?? :cry

[Hart]

Well for one thing change ur fishy name......it's not good to call yourself derogatory names.

Obviously it doesn't matter WHAT UR WEIGHT is.....u feel about yourself bad enuf to call urself...dork.

Given that, it follows that ur weight it NOT the key to ur feeling good or bad.

A doctor will tell you what is best for your physical health. He has not reason to lie, his focus is your well being.

If you want to understand and cope with the FEELINGS that surround your ED, you need to see a counselor or support group.

You can feel better about yourself. You are not a number on a scale, or the sickly girl that can barely keep themselves warm, not get dog tired, have trouble concentrating, have dull hair, have dizzy spells, that's not you, either.

Find out WHO U R. You have to be willing to stick around long enuf to do so, though.

Take care of yourself hon.

[Kelly Jo]

I know exactly what your going through. I hve a really hard time control myself too. I don't really eat a whole lot, but when I do I puke. I have been heavy my whole life, so in that way i'm not like you. I was so scared though because I startd having a lot of chest pains and burning in my throat. It's so horrible. I also didn't have my period for a few months. I also went to the doctor and i'm so glad that I did. It was one of the hardest things that I ever did but I know that this will all help in the end. I don't want to get better some days and then other days I know I need help. I really hope you go to the doctor. Good luck and I promise, it will feel good to get it out. I was lucky because my doctor was so easy o talk to. She really understood and tried to help with ways that I could do other things instead of puking. Good luck again! :gimmehug :gimmehug Kelly Jo

[purple_tao]

:love dork :love

gads... I hated typing that name :surprise :surprise

First off, I agree with Laura (:gumby!!). Why did you chose that name, anyway??

Second, what would happen to you and your world if you *gasp* did gain weight and had to get the next size jeans?? I mean, really??

What is your weight representing to you? Gaining weight doesn't equal "getting fat".

Oh, welcome to the :bowl :grin!!

:peace

[mermaidnol]

i know what you mean, really. but see when i bp i GAIN weight. so, but i hate the scale and i know it is so hard. the doctors generally know what is best, and try to pinpoint what else is going on. everyone always says it isnt about weight, some times it kinda is though, but it is always coupled with something else. plus the sadder and more stressed we are the more our bodies hold onto all our toxins, the happier we are, the less we worry about our bodies (when we are taking care of them and look at them as a vehicle not the enemy). good luck.

[dork]

hi
Can somebody help me in changing my fishy name? Its actually my username
Thanks

[purple_tao]

:supergrin !!!! Does this mean you don't like "D--K" anymore :yay :yay

Good for you - chose some kick-ass name :cool

I can't seem to find it here now, but you have to email :sfishy and/or :mrfishy and explain why you want to change your name. And you get only ONE TIME to do this, so choose wisely :winky!!

Maybe :dragon can help me out here.....

:peace

[purple_tao]

By the way, while you're emailing :sfishy and :mrfishy (the owners of this site) kinda hint to them that they should take off their santa hats :muhaha :muhaha :muhaha. Sorry .... I just crack up when I see them.......

I'm tired ....... off to bed .... zzzz .........

:peace