I am sick of myself...

[Still_Fishing]

......I am fairly new to this. But I really need to talk to others that know what I'm going through, it seems that nobody understands me. Like today, I felt so grossed out with myself!!! :cry And my boyfriend kept telling me that there's no reason for me to feel like that. I just wanted to scream at him!! I don't know why??? He just doesn't understand! It frustrates me so much! I have another self-injure problem that I'm dealing with as well. I hate it!!!! I'm not sure what the age group that usually chats on here is since we can't write numbers, but if ANYONE wants to chat. Please...........I feel like I'm alone.

[ScrambledEgg]

No way are you alone, you're in the right place. I feel like I can talk to no one, but when good friends come to listen I can't even explain to them how I"m feeling. I'm trapped physically and emotionally, and I can't express this to others. Keep on talking to us.

[MonaBear]

Hey there! You have come to the right site - I would wager that everybody who uses this site has felt alone and disgusted at themselves at many points along the way. I too am starting out, and feel a bit overwhelmed. Of course, your b/f is right - there's no reason to feel grossed out with yourself. But, as usual (!) the boy has missed the real point. The point is that you DO feel like this, and nothing he, nor anybody else says can make you change your mind. Maybe you could explain to him that you're not looking for reassurances, but that you want to discuss how you feel, without him feeling the need to jump in. Of course, to be helped, you need to challenge this thinking - there's a really great area in this site (i think it's in the games section) that gets you to articulate what you really mean when you say "I feel f*t". It's also interesting to read others responses. Good luck dear, you have made great progress just by entering this site - there are plenty of fabulous people around!
Keep in touch

[Still_Fishing]

Hey, thanks for replying to me. And your right about no matter what anyone says, I'm still going to feel like this. Until I change that, it's just very hard. On top of me not wanting to eat, I self-injure. I'm going to therapy right, but it's so difficult!!! I get so frustrated with myself!!! I just wanna scream sometimes!! :reallymad I just feels really good to talk to someone who knows how I feel.

[MemorableBabyDolly]

You are not alone. An ED and self-injury are about being sick of yourself. We are all sick of ourselves. That's why we're in this situation. I was extremely sick of me last week, b/p all the time and drunk myself into oblivion. Trust me, I know. You are in the right place. Welcome and hugs. :yay

[semiramis]

:hugon Still_Fishing :hugoff

Hello and welcome to the :bowl !
You are not alone. There are a lot of people who have gone through the same things and who right now feel with you.
Your boyfriend can't help you much in this. The only thing he can do is lending you an open ear when you need it, and open arms.
It is great that you have a T. I hope therapy helps you to see through all this.
Do you know why you are sick of yourself?

:gimmehug