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[zorkwhat]

are there any bulimics besides me who actually BINGE and then throw up as opposed to throwing up normal meals? i feel like a huge fatty posting here cuz when i purge its because i ate pints and bags and containers. please reply
samantha

[razzledazzle]

Samantha you are not alone.

you are referring to the awful binge-purge cycle that inflicts many of us fishies here. dont feel like a "fatty" or whatever because you are not. binge-purge is very emotional. for me it involves keeping feelings inside too long and a need to release them. i eat normally in public, with my friends and my family. i look healthy. binge-purge takes over when i feel sad, lonely and repressed. it can also be physical when one is restricting too long. restriction leads to greater chances of binge-purge.

have you looked into the deeper side of binge-purge?

do not feel alone and keep posting. the :bowl is a great support system.

keep your head up. I am thinking of you

:love
RAZZ

[titian]

am really short on time today but had to answer this

:maytrigger talks about occurance of b/p

yes - infact that's the only kind of b/p i've ever done.

my eating is pretty ordered, sensible and healthy but punctuated by b/p sessions. at my worst, say three or four times a week.

and yes it makes me feel a pig and also that am not sick or thin enough to be taken seriously as an ed sufferer. but that is just bollocks. you know when you have a problem!

much love
see you soon
e

[Tobey]

Samantha, you are not alone at all. Many, many people here are in the same boat, including myself. I usually plan my binges and shop for them because as ironic as it sounds, I feel like I have some control. I hate, hate, hate that I do this, but it is so difficult to change!

The more you read posts here and observe people around you, the more you will realize how prevalent eating disorders are in our society. How much a person weighs says very little about what private hell they may be suffering. So know that you are not alone, you'll find great support here! :love Mary

[BeagleGirl]

AS my ed has progressed (?) over the years, my style of eating has changed.
As an anorexic I didn't eat,
then as I switched to bulmic stuff I would eat and throw up what I ate,
allowing me to maintain an low weight without the emaciation of anorexia,
and then over the year as I have worked on recovery I learned to eat normal meals... and just binge on the side
now I can even eat HUGE meals,
and still binge HUGELY on the side...
For example I might eat three big meals in one day (keeping it all down) and between each of those meals consume quarts of ice cream, dozens of cookies or donuts, etc.
So yes - I BINGE... and purge... and eat alot in between...
just my experience...
you are not alone!
:doggy

[cemmhs]

:hugon zorkwat :hugoff
Of course you are not alone, but you are unique. Everyone here in the :bowl shares a common bond with similar problems, but then again everyone has a different situation which landed us here.
I am like you. I think I was anorexic last year and became terribly afraid of certain foods for dumb reasons. I lost a lot of weight and wanted to stay at where I was even though I knew it was way too low. So I started p with just normal meals. This lead quickly to the b/p cycle. Blah! I wished it would never have happened. I have gained enough control back that I only purge after I binge, so I can have normal meals without discomfort. It's stopping the b/p cycle now that is standing in my way.
My T asked me if I could somehow distract myself when I felt the urges coming on, but at the time, the binge was over before I even realized what I was doing...now I am more able to recognize it, so write out a list of 'distractions' that would be constructive rather than destructive. The urges go away with time. You may have to leave wherever you are, go for a walk or to exercise, or call a friend, read a book, watch tv, come to the :bowl (:cheesy)
If only binging is your problem, you may want to write up a food plan for the day or week and try and stick to it. Make sure you include healthy choices that will keep you full enough that you will not be hungry. Stick with it and not only will you be proud of yourself for sticking with your plan, you will be giving your body a much needed break by not b/p, and you will be saving so much more time and money!
Lots of :clover!
clair :bear

[Kornie]

samantha,
i eat, uh... MASSIVE amounts of food. like... way more than a days worth of a normal person... WAYYYY more... maybe a weeks worth of bloody food...
i find it interesting that it seems a lot of people here don't even really BINGE (imo)
so you're not alone... mines w/out questions a large large binge... and you practically HAVE to purge you're so bloody nauseaous...

:love
~Kaitlin