temptation

[runswimtri]

Do any of you fishies ever tempt yourself by making yourself think about your trigger b/p food? Or do you even go so far to buy the food but tell yourself youre not going to eat it and then you dont for a little while, but eventually do?
I am nervous about today because it is the start of day four of no b/p. But this part of the week is always the hardest. I was laying in bed this morning and I was making myself think about my b/p food. If I am so determined not to b/p then why am I making myself think about these things? Sometimes I dont understand myself. Stay strong fishies...I have confidence in us. We are deserving of this recovery process.

[Hart]

(((Runswimtri))))

No, I don't want to make myself miserable thinking about my favorite binge food....how about focusing on the after effects of it....the sore throat, red eyes, bloated feeling, tiredness, feelings of self-hate and depression......

Those things are why we definitely want NOT to binge/purge.

You are doing so well.....but you keep saying how after so long....the latter part of the week...you ALWAYS screw up. It sounds like you are working yourself up to give up.....like u r giving yourself permission.

STOP IT!!! Whatever happened before doesn't have to be this scenario....you CAN make it thru a week.

Don't let your self down by purposely entering doubts and temptations in your mind. Focus on your great no b/p streak, on NOT having your favorite binge food in the house.

You can do this hon.

[struggling_t]

For some reason I belive i can moderate my binge-food or pretend that i dont want it. I buy it and keep it beside me like I'm trying to have control-over myself..like I was when I was anorexic, hello im bulimic now...that just all goes in, not a portion, not a sample....ALL! I really have to stop doing that to myself. Just dont buy it!

[sdfklajaweoivnm]

you show that you have control by not buying it too!
we all have moments of weakness, but try to set up buffers against b/p when your are strong instead of leaving avenues that will give you excuses to. i know what you mean by setting up limits for that food...which always would happen when my roommate would unknowingly buy my triggers and offer them to me...
you can be strong!
make the whole week!
look forward!
i know you can...