been awhile

[FlutterByeMe]

it's been awhile.

i'm crabby, and not eating much. and crabby.

and my boyfriend wants to move in together, and i said no, feeling awful about it. he has too much baggage, i have too much baggage.

we went out to eat on sunday night and i saw this girl ... so skinny, it was obvious that something was wrong. and, of course, otherwise tan and gorgeous. she looked like one of those pictures, in pro-ed sites. it was bothering me so much i could barely eat. bf had to switch seats with me so that i couldn't see her, and ... let's just say her appearance is still bugging the hell out of me.

she looked happy. and smaller than i.

bf said she's ugly, etc. i'm beautiful, sexy, etc.

i hope this site doesn't get edited out for anything.

i'm just so exhausted, and in need of support.

[serenity]

Sara Ann..

I have those kind of problems too, when I see somebody who can be really triggering. Try not to think about her. Love and accept yourself...you are not your weight..or your thinness. That doesn't change who you are on the inside. It sounds like your bf cares about you and is trying to support you. Accept that he can feel your beauty even if there is a skinny person in the room. :love


Luv
Wendy :winky

"The qualities I admire in others I have in myself"
:bandwagon

[JennyA]

Originally posted by FlutterByeMe
it's been awhile.

i'm crabby, and not eating much. and crabby.

and my boyfriend wants to move in together, and i said no, feeling awful about it. he has too much baggage, i have too much baggage.

we went out to eat on sunday night and i saw this girl ... so skinny, it was obvious that something was wrong. and, of course, otherwise tan and gorgeous. she looked like one of those pictures, in pro-ed sites. it was bothering me so much i could barely eat. bf had to switch seats with me so that i couldn't see her, and ... let's just say her appearance is still bugging the hell out of me.

she looked happy. and smaller than i.

bf said she's ugly, etc. i'm beautiful, sexy, etc.

i hope this site doesn't get edited out for anything.

i'm just so exhausted, and in need of support.

[JennyA]

Originally posted by FlutterByeMe
it's been awhile.

i'm crabby, and not eating much. and crabby.

and my boyfriend wants to move in together, and i said no, feeling awful about it. he has too much baggage, i have too much baggage.

we went out to eat on sunday night and i saw this girl ... so skinny, it was obvious that something was wrong. and, of course, otherwise tan and gorgeous. she looked like one of those pictures, in pro-ed sites. it was bothering me so much i could barely eat. bf had to switch seats with me so that i couldn't see her, and ... let's just say her appearance is still bugging the hell out of me.

she looked happy. and smaller than i.

bf said she's ugly, etc. i'm beautiful, sexy, etc.

i hope this site doesn't get edited out for anything.

i'm just so exhausted, and in need of support.

I hope i am posting this right, I am new at this

but i wanted to let you know you are no alone. that stuff stresses me out, i envy all skinny people healthy or not, but on my good days i can be happy with who i am , trying to keep a postive attitiude. But you are not alone , just live day by day .take a deep breath and try to smile. Your beautiful!
:ballons

[emma lucy]

:hugon Flutter :hugoff

Hey!! Great to see you again, even if it's under :ugh circumstances.
Well done for standing up for what you believe is right. Someday moving in will seem the right thing to do, so I'm glad you're lookig after you.
I hope you can believe your boyfriend when he says you are beautiful. That's why he goes out with you.
It sounds as if you have a gem there :grin