tryingtobeme
09-04-2004, 10:42 AM
I hope this post isn't closed because it isn't a medical question. I know the answer is to see your doctor. My question is how to get there.
I see my doctor for lots of things. Seems like I've had to go a lot in the past couple of years. I was just there yesterday. Ummm...I forgot to bring this up.
I have always had chest pains and palpitations from time to time, due to a heart murmur. No big deal. But I have been having them a lot lately. How do I go to the doctor about it? I don't want to go and make a big deal out of something that is nothing. Or stress. But more than that, I REALLY don't want to go and it be something ED related. I can't take the guilt. That I did it to myself.
That would also be admitting that what I do to myself is serious. I suffer from that "my ed is not that bad" syndrome.
I'm a person that thinks about all possible scenarios before doing something. Well, what if I had to have tests, or god forbid go in the hospital? For something I did? I can't get past the fact that people would be so pissed off at me! Especially my husband. He would have to take care of our son, take him to school, take care of him at night. Somebody would have to take me where I need to go. Who would do my work at my job during this critical end of the fiscal year? I have so many things to do and places to be. Someone would have to do them.
But then, what if its nothing. I'll look like a hypochondriac. I'd be embarrassed. I go to the doctor about once a month for one thing or another (I told him it just seemed to go downhill when I turned thirty-five), I feel like some doctor groupie.
Maybe I'm overanalyzing the whole thing. Maybe its stress. I have been under a bit more stress lately.
I KNOW the answer is to go to the doctor. That's not what I'm asking for here.
I'm scared/ashamed/embarrassed to go. What I'm asking for is a little encouragement and motivation to actually get there.
:love TTBM
I see my doctor for lots of things. Seems like I've had to go a lot in the past couple of years. I was just there yesterday. Ummm...I forgot to bring this up.
I have always had chest pains and palpitations from time to time, due to a heart murmur. No big deal. But I have been having them a lot lately. How do I go to the doctor about it? I don't want to go and make a big deal out of something that is nothing. Or stress. But more than that, I REALLY don't want to go and it be something ED related. I can't take the guilt. That I did it to myself.
That would also be admitting that what I do to myself is serious. I suffer from that "my ed is not that bad" syndrome.
I'm a person that thinks about all possible scenarios before doing something. Well, what if I had to have tests, or god forbid go in the hospital? For something I did? I can't get past the fact that people would be so pissed off at me! Especially my husband. He would have to take care of our son, take him to school, take care of him at night. Somebody would have to take me where I need to go. Who would do my work at my job during this critical end of the fiscal year? I have so many things to do and places to be. Someone would have to do them.
But then, what if its nothing. I'll look like a hypochondriac. I'd be embarrassed. I go to the doctor about once a month for one thing or another (I told him it just seemed to go downhill when I turned thirty-five), I feel like some doctor groupie.
Maybe I'm overanalyzing the whole thing. Maybe its stress. I have been under a bit more stress lately.
I KNOW the answer is to go to the doctor. That's not what I'm asking for here.
I'm scared/ashamed/embarrassed to go. What I'm asking for is a little encouragement and motivation to actually get there.
:love TTBM