Feel like a cow

[SandyClaws]

:trigger :trigger :trigger :trigger (behaviors)


Hey :fishy ies. Just got done with eating a couple random things, and now feel fuller than ever. Wanted to purge, stepped in the bathroom, and knew I needed to defeat this thing. AHHHH I'm going crazy I really want to but I don't at the same time. I always feel like such a heffer. I hate that!! Thanks for listening :fishy ies. c ya
Sandy Claws

[RMR]

Fight it, Sandy!!! I'm with you!!!
Isn't is crazy, how fast we get full, and how AWFUL it feels...but it's okay...our stomachs get full on half what a "normal" person's does...so remember you DIDN'T eat an extraordinary amount...and it's OKAY!!!

Our minds can be our worst enemies...i was just in the grocery store the other day...walked by a container of nacho cheese ("buy one get one free")...knew if i took it home it'd be to b/p. put it in my cart...walked toward the checkout counter...and there was a literal war going on in my head!! don't do it! don't do it! i screamed at myself. so i turned around and put it back, walked away, but then you know what? my EVIL EVIL binge voice won. i went back, picked it up, went home, and the rest you know. and just as i predicted, it ruined my mood the rest of the night and the next day. i literally didn't want to live anymore...it's a biochemical reaction i guess, after the b/p, i get so depressed (after the euphoria wears off i guess)

what's the point of all this? DON'T let the binge voice win!!! fight back!!! Dont' give in 'cause later you'll just feel WORSE!!! your body needs that food and deserves it...let it have it, it is not too much, and it will not make you "fat"...it is just food, a meal, let it go at that. next time i hear my binge voice screaming at me i'm gonna try to tell myself the same thing...best of luck to both of us.

Love, (sorry i'm just not into the cute thingies...)
RMR (not even a very cutesy webname...)

[sugar]

:hugon SandyClaws :hugoff

It hurts me to read your post--I know EXACTLY how you feel. The anxiety that comes after eating a freakin snack! My friends without ED's do that all the time and are toatally fine. They can go in the kitchen, talk on the phone, randomly eat things untill their full and that's it. When I do that I swear I go through some catostrophic anxiety attack. "should I purge? should I excersise, sleep, fuck it...I just won't eat the rest of the day .." Trust me sweety, eating is OK!!! I'm so glad you decided not to purge. I believe that truly is a huge step to accomplish. Hang in their OK--put the "heffer" feelings away and relax...think peaceful thoughts--- :love

[DeltaGirl]

Hey Sandy,

I understand those feelings however we have to remember that is the voice of the eating disorder. We have to fight against that voice. I am here for you. We can fight that ed voice and win.

[razzledazzle]

hey sandy claws

the E/D voice is the demon. you barely ate much. it is a deceptive voice telling you that you need to purge. DON"T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:love
RAZZ

im fighting right here with you as i type :kick

[purple_tao]

:love SC :love

I see this is a day late, but how did you do the rest of the evening, and today? Like the other :fishy said, what you ate wasn't that much. And if you really wanted it, that was just your body's way of telling you it needed nutrition.

And hooray for you :balloons You didn't puke ya brains out!!!!!! Yup, that's really hard. You fight like a son-of-a-b with your thoughts: SHOULD I....SHOULDN'T I....SHOULD I....SHOULDN'T I..... :reallymad DAMN EVIL ED VOICES :reallymad But hey!! You won that time, SC!!! You :kick !!! You rule :cool !!!

Remember, when you get that b/p urge, come here to the :bowl and vent your emotions. We can handle them: good or bad. If you're mad as hell at the ED, then let it out!!! :surprise !!

I'd really like to hear how you did today. Still in that fighting mode? As long as you're fighting, you're WINNING :yay !!!

Stay positive, SC ~~too lazy to type out your whole name~~

:peace